Aurelie

I'm 17 years old and I've been sexually active with my boyfriend for almost a year now. I went to see my doctor today and she told me I'm going to need to go for my first gyno exam within a month or so, and I'm really freaked out! She kept talking about HPV virus or something along the lines of that (not HIV) that a girl could have without even realising it! She really scared me, and when she saw my expression she said "Well, if you're big enough to have sex you're bihenough to get a gyno exam" What should I expect, is it gonna hurt? Oh, one more thing, I'm using depo provera to protect myself from pregnancy and I havent gotten my period since...Is this normal? My mother is getting suspicious, I have to pretend that I have it.

I have to start off by saying that I am very much in love with my boyfriend Luke. We've been together for almost a year and a half, and although we've had quite a few rough times we've always made it through (I guess love really does conquer all). A few times we've gotten into a tremendous argument and ending up splitting or going on a break (but it never lasted for more than a week). For the last couple of weeks I've been feeling rather guilty whenever I see Luke. A couple weeks back we had split for a couple of days, and during that short period of time all I could think about is this guy, Michael, whom I go to high school with. (Luke goes to college) Michael and I have one class together and we talk quite a bit and get along very well, and he also happens to be very goodlooking. According to my friends he's always shown an interest in me, and he has this way of looking deep into my eyes when he talks to me and it makes my heart flutter. I can't explain what I feel for him, I hardly even know him that well. When it comes to relationships he's a supporter of casual sex since he was hurt quite a bit in the past and hasnt had a relationship since. Anyway, Luke and I are together and I adore him, but I often have dreams about Michael. They are fantasies more than anything. Whenever he kisses me in my dreams I feel something I have NEVER felt for any guy in my entire life, not even Luke. I don't know what to do, I'm so confused. Sometimes I just want to grad Michael and kiss him and see if it feels as magical as it does in my dreams. Luke and I have a wonderful serious fulfilling relationship, and I don't wanna risk the chance of losing him to be with someone who only wants to have sex. I don't want a relationship like that, and I dont know how to stop my thoughts about Michael. PLEASE HELP ME.