I wish I knew what happen, after 12 years of marriage with up and down like every body. I don't feel Love for my husband, and no sex attraction. I feel like I need adventure/Love/Romance. I want to fall in Love and be Loved.I am having an affair, and I am the one how runs after him. It drives me creasy, I can really stop because I have strong feelings for him. I am not sure of his feelings. I feel like a fool. I don't want to run away from my house, I think I need intensity on a side for now???????