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Hi Rexy, How are you today? It is snowing pretty hard here. I live in central NY so I guess I should be used to it by now. I am not though. So your ex showed up at your office??? Was that weird? Is your ex still dating someone else? Do you think if she crashes around christmas that you will take her back? As for me.. there are days when I really really want to be with my ex but then there are the better days when I don't. let me say that Thanksgiving was going great and as soon as it was time to eat I got this horrible empty feeling and I just wanted to go to sleep. I guess in my heart she was supposed to be there with me. I keep telling myself though that even if she does come back I need to be strong and say no. There is no way that I want to end up in this situation again. I do know that I have changed so much since this last break up. I try to focus on my job and my family right now.. maybe someday I will find someone that is right for me and maybe I won't but either way I need to live for me and not for her. I need to go eat something but if you want you can email me direct at email removed

Well Rexy, Seems as though you and I live very similiar lives. Hey, maybe we are dating the same person.. lol Anyway, everyday I feel as though I am moving on and the pain lessons but also every day and night my thoughts are of her. It feels as if I am sitting here waiting for her. I passed her in a car with a guy the other day and she was laughing and having a great time as I could see. My heart sunk right into my stomach. I feel as though it is ok for her to be with someone else because clearly she isnt happy with me but then I think what am I doing wrong? why cant I find someone that I can laugh with and be happy with. I know that she may look happy but I also know from past history that she isnt happy. She will eventually crash and I hope that I am not the one involved this time. As for you, how are things with you and your ex? Are you still talking? I havent talked to mine since the 2nd week in June. Just when will I get over it?? Well, I have to go. Hope to hear from you again!

Whtetigr... thanks! I think that you are right. I need to move on with my life. She has blocked my email so I guess that right there tells me it is over. I feel like I have't fought hard enough but on the other hand if I fight anymore what will I win. Either way there is pain. I think she is seeing a guy right now. How do I compete with that?? I guess I don't. Any tips on getting over the pain?

thanks for your reply. Actually she is taking her meds on a regular basis. Unfortunately it doesn't help much. Anything you can offer about the disease will be appreciated. All I know is that every year she cycles and she becomes a totally different person. She cuts me out of her life like I never existed and that really breaks my heart. I know that the best thing for me is to get away from her altogether but a piece of me is always hopeful that she will get better and we can be happy together. well thanks for listening and if you like feel free to email me at email removed.

Here is my story. I recently got out of a 3 1/2 yr relationship with the person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. We broke up 3 months ago and I was strong all summer long. My ex had bi-polar and it really put damge on our relationship. She dumped me every summer for the past 3 of them. Each summer my heart would break, I would have panic attacks, and I would end up in therapy. And every fall we would get back together as if nothing happened. Well, this summer I stayed strong because I thought we would get back together and I just found out that this time around it just isnt going to happen. If you know anything about bi-polars you know that they cycle. Well right now she is in a full swing of a manic cycle. She wants me to think everything is great in her life and that she is moving away. This is something that she does every year before she "crashes". Unfortunetly for me I am the one that suffers all the pain. I guess I have to face the fact that it is over but it hurts so much. I wanted so bad to keep the friendship but she insists that we should not contact each other. What should I do? Is she saying that she doesnt want to contact each other so that I will contact her? Are there any bi-polars out there or someone that has experienced a relationship with a bi-polar that knows what I am going through? All I know right now is that I want her back and I do not know how to do that. Please write me with any advice! Thank You!