mman542

Yes, I have seen him. We didn't leave totally, we came back a few hours later. I'm not sure what I'm asking for, I just need to talk about somethings. I really don't like talking, but I have been able to post things like this. So, whatever you think could help I guess I'll try. Prankster

I think the last time we spoke was roughly a year ago - but I wanted to know if you would still care to talk. I hardly know you, but I'm going to open up and talk to you about things that I can't trust my own family with. I come from a family which is now divorced, my Mom and Dad have boyfriends and girlfriends - my parents are straight. They have shown little repspect or care towards me which has really angered me. They treat me like , letting me know I have to babysit four six hours because they want to go out for dinner or something. After I met my Dads girlfriend for the first time, he told us he and she were going to to rent a house and live together. I was ready to punch him but I've been sucking things up, and it's causing some problems. It's been said that I have an anger problem, and cannot manage my anger which leads to depression. I don't know if it's true, but I sure am angry as hell most of the time. Because honestly? I cannot say I love my parents. I know most people say these things when they're angry, but I'm serious. They show little repspect, and claim they don't see enough of my. But when I go to one of their houses, I'm put to work and yelled at. My family, father in particular was very abusive. The first time I was really abused was when I was four years old. We were invited to a neighbors party, and I wasn't fully potty-trained. I was at the part when I had an accident. On our way home, my father punched me very hard. Another time, my parents were in a very large fight. One of the worse. My Dad picked me up and carried me in the garage. They were screaming at each other, my mother demmaning him to put me down. I was either three or four. He finally let me done, and I went with my mother. My Dad drove off. I was usually grabbed, screamed in the face and thrown to the ground or onto my bed. On a few occaisons I was slapped very hard accross the face by my mother. One night things were really bad, and I my dad and mom had an enourmous fight. I was probably hit a few times, so my mom, sister and me went into the car and drove away. We talked about never wanting to go back again. Another thing was when I was eight years old. I'd listen to my parents fight for what seemed like hours. I remember I'd have dreams and think about them killing each other with knives, and walking downstairs seeing blood all over the ground. So here I am a few years later, and still in bad place. I have been drinking a little, and tried smoking some weird things with a friend. I also remember when I would come home, I'd stand in my kitchen with a large sharp knife on my wrist I have done too many dumb things, and I needed to talk. If you do read this - thanks. Mman aka Prankster

Thanks. I guess it is anger. my parents ay i bottle everything up, which i guess i do. but then i explode in these rages of anger, but im usually angry about one thing or another. i try to take out the physicall stuff by not harming people, but dang. id love to just punch some people in the face. mman

something has been weird. my mom thinks i might be suffering from depression. im usually always angry, or get angry really quick. theres nothing i can find to do and nothing i feel like doing. i usually think of everything being negative, and dont know what to do with myself. ive done lots of stupid things, and want to try and help myself before one of these things ends up hurting me or someone else even more. mman

*SaRaH*69*, I know what your saying. I don't talk about my feelings either. I just go around and do stuff I relate later. However, I haven't been able to get pot. Well, I guess that really is a good thing. How eminem helps I don't know. Hell, it works so who cares. My family is (censored) up, everythings wrong and nuttin' has gotten' better. So I drink occasianlly. Smoke stuff, not tobaco, but stuff'.

Ok, my parents first got separated and then divorced. Im in my first year of junior high and I got to much crap to deal with: school, friends, drugs, schoolwork/projects, divorce. Now, money is so bad we need to move. Luckily it's in the same town but still, moving sucks. Then, I have even tried smoking. Not cigaretts or weed or anything just, weird stuff. Then, I was going to try some "stuff" That a friend had but he moved. Omg, then theres school. I don't want to be considered a dumb@$$. Theres a girl I like and it first stuff was going good we were talking now, we like never talk and i think she thinks i'm a dumb... I need help, my parents and conseuler at school want me to talk about feelings but I always refuse. Also, one thing that helps me is rap music. My dad lets me have it. I get pissed go through own a cd and calm down. I try saying this to my mom and she is always like no. I mean, eminem really helps. But, just because she has some friends who would be offended by his stuff means i cant get it. I have to secretly get kazza and stuff to listen to it! PLus, his new stuff aint really bad towards gay people. %^&@ it. Any advice? mman

ok, well thanks i may get the guts to get to the point where i do ask her out somewhere. I have a few questions more relating to this. Number 1: Is it right or ok to ask someone out on instant messenger rather then in person? i know its probably not but, you cna imagine how much easier it would be to me. anyways. Number 2 : would asking her and some of her friends if they would like to meet me and some of my friends at say, a movie? or some place like that a good base to get to know her even better or kind of like group of friends thing because i go to asking her out as a one on one thing at the movies? well, thanks for help viperdh ~~mman~~

ok, well first i want to say hi to everyone one, i just joined. anyways ill get to the point. there is this girl i really like at school ( junior high, 12-13 yrs old ) She knows i like her. We have spoken for a little bit for the past three days in one of my classes. We have both smiled, she has giggled. But, i dont really know where to go from here. For one thing, the only reason she knows i like her is because two of my friends knew i was so shy i would most likely never tell her so they told her for me. So since im shy i dont know where and how to go to the next stage. P.S. im not exactly what you would call mr social king in school. also, im not exactly really popular. thanks to anyone who posts here ! ~~mman~~