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I'm back. I'm alive (barely). I honestly had the trip of a lifetime. In short, we had a group of like 50 people that went from my school. Day drinking by the pool and beach all damn day. If I see another pina colada, I might puke. Haha. But for real though, the resort we stayed at was sick. Tons of hotties walking around. Lots of good drinks. DJs. Fun night life. We had a suite, which was honestly pure luck because all of our other friends had smaller rooms. Our suite was definitely the spot though before we went out at night. With the ladies, I hooked up with three randoms, one girl from my school who I didn't know, and my one steady girl (girl with boyfriend 'J') The three randoms were basically just drunk, night club hookups and the one girl from my school who I didn't know was basically the same thing. I pulled one girl out of the pizza palor there, but that's another story. 'J' and I had a thing a few years ago and when my ex and I broke up, I started to talk to her again after a few months. We've been hooking up for a solid two months now and we talk constantly. We gave each other space during the day and we'd bring our two groups of friends together at night and go out. Super good balance there. We slept together for three of the five nights. I passed out a little early on one of the nights and she came looking for me, but I was out cold. Just a side note: After I hooked up with this one chick, I went to go looking for J. One of her friends answered (who I'm friends with) and she told me that she went out. I immediately got super angry. She then told me that she just went to walk a friend back from the bar. But, that just went in one ear and out the other. I automatically assumed that she was with another guy and I bugged out. I was already in a drunken stooper and I punched a hole in the wall. Broke some stuff around the hotel. I basically berated her through text. I had her come over the next day, I apologized to her, but she was clearly pissed off with me (rightfully so). I already know that she hooks up with somebody else (her boyfriend, ahem), so I don't know. I know that I couldn't be with her because I couldn't trust her, but still. My room mate for the first two years at school (first friend here) and I had a long chat one night before going out. Him and I were pretty tight early on, but we basically just drifted apart when I started to date my ex. I told him that I regretted that happening, that I let my ex divide us, etc. He just said that he tried telling me early on that I was just way better than she was. But hey, I didn't listen and you gotta learn about that stuff on your own accord. He basically made a new group of friends and I just did my own thing with my ex. If him and I would have stayed together, who knows what would have happened, but I feel fortunate that we were able to patch stuff up and have him introduce me to his group. Overall though, I had a great time on SB. I met so many new people, I got a tan, I drank basically all day everyday, lived the ideal single SB lifestyle. The food was terrible, but if that's my only complaint, I had a good time! About the job: I got an offer letter and I'm in the process of filling out all of the forms. I start in early July in NYC. Found out as soon as I landed in the DR on Monday morning.
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I feel that GOIP. For sure man. Most stories are similiar. Throw in a hint of cheating, a little age differential, a dash of emotional abuse, and a case of GIGS and you have the majority of ENA cases. Some stories are outliers (like Brownstone, dude was in a relationship for 19 years!) but 90% are the same. I agree with you that our damn exes aren't going to learn * * * * * on their own. I feel like we both provided a ton of clarity for their goofy a$$es and they messed it up. I already know that I'm going to have a great life and comfort lifestyle. Anyone who gets to ride shotgun now is a lucky woman. Same goes for you man with your career. Big things are already on their way. You know it. I know it. Haters know it! We just gotta keep grindin and keep watchin' people get mad about it. We are in the fast lane my man and anyone who gets to enjoy our presence is lucky! Off to vacation now. Will be back to post some stories on Saturday night!
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Thanks MIC and TF12 for the support... Just to give any new reader the Cliff Notes' version of my story... My ex and I dated for two years and broke up back in October 2010. We are both senior in college and will be graduating this May. We made our plans for after graduation, spent all of our time together, and our families meshed really well. The first few weeks after the breakup? I was a complete mess. I was drinking very, very heavily. I started to reach back out to some of the friends I ignored while my ex and I were together. The friends were great and still are great, but I still pined for my ex. I tried to see her a few different times during those first few weeks. I resorted to even begging one time. It was bad and she always said no and told me to stop. I would always keep a tally of my NC days and she always seemed to crop up every two weeks or so. I heard from her on Thanksgiving, my birthday, and Christmas. I never answered her texts. After ignoring her for two months, she showed randomly to my apartment in January. She basically started crying, saying that she didn't just throw our relationship away (she did). When we broke up, we both agreed that we needed time away, but we ultimately wanted to be together. I heard that she was interested in a new guy so didn't like her back. After that, she sought out an ex-fling. They hooked up for awhile, but he basically blew up and told her off. While I was ignoring my ex, I was hooking up with A LOT of girls. Girls at school, girls at home, girls I just met. I was balling out. But I realize that it was just a temporary distraction and wasn't really helping me at all. I've cooled my jets with all of the hooking up and have spent more time focused on me. I got my job ready to go for after graduation, I'm playing on the baseball team again, and I have so many new friends now. I realize that I wouldn't have had these new friends or been on the baseball team if I was still with my ex. I still miss her and think about her everyday, but I'm realizing that this happened for a reason and it's probably for the best that we aren't together. I'm always going to have a super soft spot for her and I'm just accepting that. Who knows what the future holds, but I'm on the fast track.
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I talk to a bunch of different girls and shared the good news with friends/family, but it just sucks too that I don't have someone special to share that with yet. My ex and I had all of these plans together and I've watched all of these goals come true over the last few months without her around to enjoy it. Granted, it was her decision to bail because I was willing to talk.
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Crushed the interview today. I was apparently the last person they wanted to interview. After meeting the regional director, he told me that he saved 'the best for last' because he was really impressed by my resume. I met with two different people, but we really didn't even talk about the job, which was cool with me. I asked the normal questions about corporate culture and stuff, but they told me that my resume told me all they needed to know, they want me and want to move the offer process along as quickly as possible. They also said I was very well-spoken and could tell I would thrive in that office. Loved the office. Liked the people in there. Love NYC. It's a good fit for me. Looks like I'll be NYC bound in a few months! Great day.
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I'm starting to feel very, very strong again. Probably because I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel again. I feel like I'm almost there. I've been in NC with her for 5 or 6 weeks now (I lost track). Yeah, I've seen her around, but it's so obvious that she puts up this front that she's so happy when she's really not. Kind of like how I was masking my pain by talking at nauseum about banging all these girls. Was just a phase and I thought it was cool. Now, I'm just really focusing on me and letting life come to me for once. I felt this strong about 6 weeks ago and that's right when my ex came and made a mess of my unsettled emotions. If she came knocking on my door tomorrow, I'd be able to handle it 100x times better because I've started to take the time to just be alone. Just let it be. Like The Beatles. When we want someone so badly, we'll never get them. Why? Because the Universe knows that giving you that person back will not make you, the best you. At least right now. I'm starting to realize (once again) that I've outgrown my ex. I started to feel this way before two months back. I realize now that there's so much more out there. So many new opportunities. New people to meet. Things to do. I have a job interview on Friday afternoon and I'm really excited for that. Couple that in with my vacation on Monday, baseball season kicking off soon, and my small business taking off and life really can't get any better for me. For the first time in a long-time, I can say that being single has been a huge relief for me. I needed this time and still need it now.
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Saw the stupid ex at the gym tonight. I saw her on the treadmill, walking and I was like, damn, she gained weight. Her butt should be running! Not walking! She was texting her room mate the entire time she was on the treadmill, who was a few machines away. Of course I had bicep day at the gym and I was looking good as hell. Heard her corny laugh a few times (pretty loud too) and I was like, smh. I was thinking, you better get running or else no dude is gonna talk to you! Was told too that her jerky ex told her off awhile back because she just kept coming over his house and he got tired of it. He basically just said Eff You and cursed her out and she left. Said that she was crazy. Been talking to a bunch of different girls again. The "new girl" from weeks back asked me about the robbery and I just told her what was up. That's it.
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I feel you here. I have a super short temper when things like this get heated. I know that I can lose all of my hard work over the last 22 years if I do something silly.
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Heading down to the Dominican for a week in a week. I'm just trying lay low man and not do anything stupid. Way too close to vacation and graduation to mess it all up now. Gallop-Lmao man. You always got those witty comments that I crack up to. If they woudda came in my room....smh I can only imagine
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I'll be on the plane next week at this time heading somewhere warm..
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Still get the sense of being violated, you know? My room mate had trouble sleeping last night. These kids are basically done for and I'm not gonna do anything stupid on my end that will prevent me from going on vacation next week. I had to meet with campus safety today and I honestly can't make this stuff up, but I saw my ex again. Sucks because she was always the person I went to whenever I had the occasional issue and she was always a good listener.
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Basically, our neighbors stole from us. The police had a warrant and busted into their unit. No one was around in there. We were able to recover a lot of our stuff, but we still collectively have over $1,500 worth of stuff missing. One of the kids that did it messaged my room mate trying to play it off as a joke and 'college humor on the wrong person'. My god. Grow up. They'll get there's soon enough. When is this non-stop drama ever going to end for me?
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To just add onto this journal, I was robbed last night. Well, my townhouse was robbed. My room mate and I went to sleep around 4am last night. Our townhouse has three floors and we sleep on the third floor. He knocked on my door this morning and asked me if I saw what happened. I thought he was joking and I went down and I saw my 46' inch Plasma TV was gone. In addition, our kitchen was trashed. Our third room mate's room was a mess. Both my room mate and I lock our doors at night, but whoever broke in got into his room and took his iPod, Mac, Wallet, etc. They didn't get into my room, but they wouldn't have made it out alive if they did. All of my food was taken out of the fridge, toilet paper, etc. My peacoat was stolen ($500) in addition to my DVD collection ($250), sneakers ($100), so all in all, about $2,000 worth of crap was taken. They apparently took ice cream out of our freezer and ate it. Left the crap on the table. We are working with the police now, but we got them on video tape.... Does this BS ever end?
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I set up an account on Plenty of Fish just for pure enjoyment and see what would pop off. In Day 1, I probably got a 50% reply rate (I sent messages all over the place) saying literally the dumbest crap ever. My profile is 100% a comedy act and I put few pictures up there. I'm realize that PoF is kind of like the bar scene. You got the fat chicks, the average chicks, and the hot girls who have no personality. No disrespect to anyone, but it's the damn truth. I messaged back and forth with a few of the hot girls and these 9s and 10s have literally no personality or know how to keep a conversation going. The fat girls have mad funny profiles and I'm sure we'd get along, but I can't date someone who weighs more than me! (I'm 190 lbs). I'll leave it up for a few more days just for enjoyment, but damn man.
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Do I miss my ex or do I miss the closeness of that relationship? Something that I've been debating recently. I really miss having someone there to share my good news with. Friends and family are great and I never take them for granted, but there's no better feeling than seeing that special girl light up when you have good news to share with her. And I always seem to have good things happening to me. I don't always want to go running off and tell my friends because I'll feel like I'm bragging then. I think I miss my ex more as a best friend than as a girlfriend. The whole friends things would never work, but yeah, I miss having that person who I had a crazy strong connection with.
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Decided just to chill tonight. I need this every once in awhile. Things get super busy with school work, my job, my business, friends, girls, etc. I feel like I need a break from the whole dating scene. I'm gonna stop pursuing for awhile and just get my game right. Of course, I'm still gonna have a bunch of girls after me, but I'ma just be easy for awhile. I leave for Spring Break in roughly one week and that's gonna be absolute insanity. College spring break. A bunch of friends going. A week without ENA. I'm ready to just get on that plane and get to that island. I need it man. And of course, I'm gonna turn the game back on then and do what I gotta do.
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Felt like writing another post tonight. Basically, dating sucks. In the time that I've been single, I've gone through a bunch of different girls. No one seems to stack up to what my ex and I had, but that's normal and it's been about 5 months since the breakup. When I'm looking for a potential girlfriend (I'm not yet), I want someone who can be my best friend. I want someone who can laugh at my corny jokes, share my pain when something bad happens in my life, and just love me for me. I'm starting to sound a little emotional, but hey, sometimes you gotta get in touch with your emotions. I put up this rock-solid archaic front all damn day that I won't let anyone break through, but at night, when I relax, I just really start to think about what I truly want in life. Ten years from now, I want to be married, have one kid, a successful career, and just be happy/healthy. I think almost everyone wants this and I know I'll have that too. I'm just going through this now because God wanted me to take this route in my life. If I would have stayed with her, I never would have played baseball, met new friends, got in touch with old ones, and drastically improved my lifestyle. My sense of fashion has improved and my workouts at the gym are always top notch. Just to think I never would have had any of this if we stayed together. Always a silver lining, right? And I'm realizing now too that if we stayed together, we'd just start to hate each other. I think back to the night when we decided to break up. I remember saying to her, 'Look, I love you and I want to spend my life with you. But at the rate we are going, we'll just hate each other and need time away'. I didn't think that would translate into her pushing me away, pushing me into six weeks of total oblivion before I finally started to rebuild myself. I'm not there yet, but I've come a long way since the start of this journal. I was starting to really take her for granted and she was always pissing me off. She clearly felt the same way and be desperately needed to be away. I think one day she'll realize what she had in me. I think she was freaked out because I was the one person in her life that truly understood her. And even now, I understand that she needs to go at it alone to prove to herself that she can make it. I was always there to pick her up and make it right, but I can't do that forever for her. She has to learn that on her own. I'll admit that I'm very intimidating to the normal person. I'm very physically attractive, extremely smart, very athletic, know what I want in life, and always have my goals/priorities in order. Not many people my age have their ish together and I do. She suffers from very low confidence levels and I do pray that she finds that confidence and just blossoms because she has that ability to. My happiness is always first, but I want her to be happy too someday. Whether that's with me or not with me, I want her to be happy because if I wished anything but happiness on her, I'd show that I didn't truly care about her and to me, that's not right. Sure, I can sit here and hate her for doing x,y, and z, but I just can't hate her anymore. If anything, I should thank her because I never would have gotten my crap together if we stayed together. Now, I'm back on the fast track and ready to embrace the future, whatever that may hold for me.
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Had a great baseball practice tonight. Man, why didn't I start playing sooner here? Just a little bit of a back story with it. When I graduated high school, I had a few offers to play ball at the next level. However, during my senior year in HS, I played over 85 games during the spring and summer and just got burnt out. I chose the college I go to now because I received a nice scholarship package and the dorms were pretty sick. I was asked to walk on the team, but I decided not to. I had a rough transition from home and that's one of my biggest regrets. To make up for it, I decided to pursue the non-division I team that plays 15 games or so per semester. It's my last semester and if I didn't play now, I never would have played again. Yes, I enjoy screwing around and playing softball with my friends, but it's not the same. I interned at top companies over the last two years. Couple that with my course work load and a girlfriend and I had no time for ball anymore. Baseball was always my first love, but I just got burnt out during that last summer. The team I was playing for was so good that it started to feel like a job. Our coach pumped so much money into that team and we were always expected to win. We fell two games shy of going to the World Series that year and I just had enough. I know for a fact that I would not of played this last semester if my girlfriend and I decided to stay together. I probably would be hanging out with her all the time. She was pushing me to play, but I was always exhausted after working and taking my classes at night. Now, I'm playing again and I have a ton of people who want to come to the games. I have a fan club, haha, so I can't wait for the games to start. I've made a lot of new friends on the team as well, so it's been fun. This is definitely one bright spot of the breakup.
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Great points ToF. You always seem to knock me back into reality, which I need from time to time. A month ago, everything was so damn easy for me. I was being a player, talking to all these girls, etc. Now, I enjoy the company of these girls, but they knew what my boundaries were. It doesn't help me find another relationship, but hey, I'm not ready/looking for that right now. I'm in a transition period in my life. Everything is going to change for me in 3 months when I graduate. New people, new situation, new me. I'm ready to embrace that and just finish strong while I'm still here.
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The girl with the boyfriend (Call her J) just left here a few minutes ago. She came over after she went out and we hung out/fell asleep for awhile. She's super affectionate with me, which has been fun, and she's really, protective? of me, which she has gotta chill. She asked me how many girls I slept with this weekend and I just changed the subject. She kept getting mad that I wouldn't answer, but she's not my girlfriend and if anything, she has the boyfriend in this case. I can tell she has obvious feelings for me while I'm just staying aloof about the whole thing and realizing the situation for what it truly is. Clock is ticking on it. Other than that man, I'm finished with that new girl. She was a crappy kisser and had no 'skills' either. She was a good distraction for about a month, but she was way too erratic for me. One day, she's upset because she doesn't want to 'lose me' and the next day, she's jumping into a cab with some dude after the bar closes. Good thing I had a very, very small investment in her. I deleted her number too because hey, I don't need the hassle. Doing my best not to wonder/think what my ex is up to, but last night I just sat there and thought about things. I think I'm starting to realize that I enjoy the chase more than actually being with her. If I got her, I wouldn't know what to do with her. Kind of like a dog chasing a car. Starting a new relationship with her would be a crap load of work and I'd be super skeptical from the start. Plus my emotional investment would have to be on point and I don't know about that.. Here's to the start of a good week.
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You are right. I'm not ready yet. I can walk around the bar, get looks, winks, a few even grabbed my a$$. But I just, I don't know. I don't approach yet because I'm not ready to. I know that I could have pulled a few different girls out of there last night, but I wasn't feelin it for some reason. I guess whenever anyone brings up my ex, it messes with me big time so I gotta tell people not to bring her up anymore. I've seen her around 4 out of 7 days this week and someone has mentioned her to me on days when I haven't seen her so I've basically had a week full of ex. Definitely not good for my healing.
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Just got in from the bar. Completely done with the new girl. She was with that new kid tonight and I'm not tryna get involved in a situation. Too many other girls out there. I texted my other girl but she wasn't getting back until late because she had a game. She told me not to be mad at her, but still I'm a little mad. I texted my friend and told him that I hated my ex because I hate the single life. I want someone stable again. I need that bond that I share with my ex again. Whether it be with her or not be with her, that's a huge gap in my life that I need fillled again.
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I'm starting to realize that most women base their decisions off of their current emotions rather than pure logic. Granted, some logic does go into decision making processes for women, but women live for the moment. Key example: I could call my ex right now, list off all of my amazing qualities, and she won't want to date me. Why? Because even though she knows I'm right about all of that stuff, she just doesn't 'feel' it for me. She may never 'feel' it again for me. Over the 4.5 months that we've been broken up, I've upped my game so much. I look better, dress better, go out a lot more now. A huge sticking point that we had was, I didn't like to go out to bar/clubs/whatever as much as she did. And I didn't have a huge social circle, either. Now, I have that social circle and I love going out to the bar/clubs/etc. Who knows what the future will hold, but I do know that I'm ready for it.
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I mean, yes and no. Of course no guy wants a girl who he has feelings for to sleep with another dude. But at the same time, she hasn't experienced other people yet while I've gone back out there and dated around. She'd never truly appreciate me and miss me until she experiences someone else. I think she assumes that every guy that likes her now will just treat her like I treated her and she's in for a rude awakening if she thinks that's the case. My buddy says that he thinks she knows that no one else would ever treat her better than I ever did. And the fact that I'd never hurt her. He thinks that she doesn't feel like she's worthy of me and truly felt bad about the whole thing. I don't want any sympathy because people don't feel attracted to people who they feel sympathy for.
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Just rolled in now after a crazy night. I hung out with my one of my buddies for the first time in awhile. Him and I have been friends for the last two years at school. He was telling me that he and my ex have gotten super tight. He is dating one of her best friends and is always around her. For some reason, she is choosing to confide in him about this stuff when she already knows we are tight. He told me that she is really upset because no guys want to date her, see her, etc. Apparently that fling or whatever with douche bag fizzled out because he started to like some other chick. He said that he knows for sure that they never slept together and that she hasn't had sex with anyone since we broke up. In addition, she's in a sorority and they had one of those auction nights to raise money for charity where the people get auctioned off for dates. Well, no one bid on her and she was humiliated. She apparently told him too because the night she showed up crying at my apartment. He said that she and I described it to him word for word. He didn't really understand why she did it either, but she told him that she just felt upset for hurting me. Basically, he said that he can tell she has a ton of issues and that he thinks we just aren't right for each other. She used to the crazy lifestyle while I'm more laidback, like stability, etc. In a weird way, this whole situation is so ironic. I never would have done baseball again, met all of the new friends, etc etc if we stayed together. However, now that we are broken up, we have a ton of mutual friends in common again. We'd mesh perfectly with my buddy and his g/f. It's just crazy how all of this works out and it makes me want her back even more. I feel like I have stability (minus a job offer) and diversity needed in my life. I just want that crazy strong, best friend/lover bond back with her and I'd honestly do anything to feel that again. I feel empty and hallow without it.