Ive been with my girlfriend for about 2 years. She really loves me and watches out for me and is just great to me. she is mostly happy when i see her, unless she just had a bad day. I care for her alot and i dont want to hurt her but i feel like a prisoner in our relationship. I've been thinking about the single life and ending our relationship for bout a year now. The thing is im only 20 (still a kid!) and i feel like ive missed out on life in the past 2 years. You know that saying "Life's Too short", these 2 years seem to have flew by! Here's my reasoning...
First, i would like to restate that i feel like im missing out. I sorta 'fell out' with my friends because i spend all my time with my girlfriend. For one, we don't hang out NEARLY as much as we used to. They also know me as a different person (the crazy party animal that wasn't afraid to talk to girls). I can't really bring her around my friends though because she'll get bored fast or annoyed because she doesn't understand how us guys are with each other. When they call me to go hang-out or go out, i usually let them down because of prior arrangements made by my girlfriend. I can leave her for a few hours to go be with my friends but then that's running on a schedule since random things just happen (go somewhere), or they'll wanna drink or something. My girlfriend doesn't want me doing anything like that without her so id have to pass on that.
To make a long post short, I want to be able to make a decision FREELY without having to consent to anyone else. But the fact that i dont want to hurt her at all makes it such a burden on me. Remember, it's not all with my friends! I also feel she's trying to change me entirely, afterall, i am a different person already. She usually wants me to go to church with her but i don't really care for going cuz im not too religious. I feel that she's trying to create her perfect guy, trying to mold me! I CANT BE MOLDED. It's clear that im in need of help. Any replies would be appreciated. Thanks.
