NCGoodfella

Day 5 I'm with you CB for the first time I am looking forward to the day, don't know why, yeah it will probably change too. I do have to see her at work so we will see I guess. I am sure I will post something tonight after work.

Wow how have I missed this post! I am on Day 4 and last night was the roughest for me today I have been busy with my kids at the pool. I am getting a little tired and I can almost feel the miserable feelings around the corner. So is this the proper place to tell my story or is this just the update post line?

I have come back to this post so many times, THANK YOU FOR POSTING IT! But with NC it is so hard when you have to see the person at work everyday. I hope to make it through today and let her go home for the weekend (where she is never to speak of me) and hope I feel better come Monday. Thanks again.

Sooo any advice, should I try to stick this out or cut my losses and run....she is so worth the wait but can I wait through all this pain is the problem.

I have not sent her a text first since Sunday, all the calls, texts and all have been made by her. I miss her dearly and it is tough watching her go by, I know she still cares but I really feel she is done with him, she just gets an incredible amount of pressure from her family to be with him.

OK, I have been posting about my ex/co-worker here for the last week. I tried a little NC over the weekend and I sent her a text on Sunday afternoon....Late Sunday I got a I miss u 2 back from her. Monday at work, in the hallway I try to smile and walk by her, she calls me we talk some. Nothing too heavy just she misses me making her laugh. She texts me a ton that day and calls 3 times 1 time on the way home from work where we talk for almost 2 hours. Tuesday same deal except conversation gets a little heavy, I ask her if she is going back to her ex, she says no but her parents invited him to Thanksgiving and he is going. She says she wants nothing to do with him but feels bad because he moved here for her and has nowhere else to go and I know he is still hanging on to her. She calls me later that day and tells me she left something at my place she needed for the next day for our company Turkey Day Celebration..I ask her if she would like for me to drop if off on her doorstep before she gets home but it ends up she comes over to get it. Her schedule is a couple of hours off of mine so I get home get her stuff together and leave it downstairs for her with the door unlock, I fell asleep. Next thing I know she is next to me and we end up kissing, we talk for about an hour, she says she needs a friend right now, I am trying to be understanding but this all hurts so bad. We give a small kiss at the door when she leaves, we both smile. She wanted me to tall her this morning to go do something with me, it is something I have been waiting to do for years. I don't think I will call her, actually she already doesn't have the time so. All advice is welcome, she has always been honest with me and I see no reason for this woman to lie, I am so damn confused.

Been up, have had the urge to but I haven't responded. I know she is probably shocked I haven't...I do have to see her at work today so we will see how it goes.

OK, she just now text back "miss u 2" it's been how many hours??? But be a little proud of me group all the hell I went through this weekend I am not responding or calling, going to bed here in a little.

Well, I know now....sent a text and no response....I don't understand what happened to us is what hurts the most. At least I know now, I am not the stalker type so that was the last time, it is over. This hurts like nothing I ever felt.

Only 1 time before and she told me it meant the world to her, but that was months ago. I am just confused...and you are right if she doesn't miss me it would hurt but at least I would know. Our relationship was perfect until this Tuesday, again...confused.

I guess this is why I am on here...my best friends are telling me to text her, saying "you are miserable and you guys got back together before by doing that" and "if she doesn't text back you know where you are...done...if she does well you have hope" Does this make sense or is they totally off???

I so want to send one, it has only been a few days of NC but I just want to say a simple miss ya! I mean she couldn't explain why we are done, I told her I would give space but this is killing me and I do have to see her at work tomorrow. How much would it hurt? All the times in the past I went to her to "break the ice" why should this time be different, maybe that is what she is waiting for?

Drumgod, Simply put that was exactly what I needed to hear tonight, I can't sleep or eat and don't want to go out at all. I know where she is and it is killing me right now. If I told you it was not getting to me I would be a liar. Your post helped a lot, amazing sometimes you need to look at things in a different light. I miss her so but thanks for the great words of advice, I need to try and follow them.

I do have to go into where she is time to time, about 5-6 times a day at least. Thing is I tried this the first day and I could not resist she just sat there and stared at me the whole time. She is the one that broke this off wanting space. As hard as it is (almost impossible, I love her so) I am just trying to give her just that ](*,)

How exactly do you NC when you are co-workers?