OMG Juliana, I've got tears running down my face right now, because YOU GET IT!!!! I mean, my family is supportive of me, and sees that he's selfish, etc., but it isn't as if they aren't a LITTLE biased.
I hope that I don't have to do what you did either, but I'm thinking of telling him that I'm not willing to continue with our marriage if things don't change. I'm just really apprehensive about going that far, but I really don't want to go on like this.
To address some of the other posts, until 2 weeks ago, I worked full time making only around $10,000 a year less than my husband. That didn't make a difference as far as our money issues were concerned. He acted the exact same way. My salary was direct-deposited into our joint savings account and he never wanted us to touch our savings account. (our mortgage is deducted from it, and, until recently, HIS student loan payments--but I couldn't take $20 out without the 3rd degree).
I recently quit my job due to observing compliance/ethics issues in the company--when I questioned my management, they made life very miserable for me at work. It got to the point where it made me physically sick, which is when hubby "allowed" me to resign. NOW, I have the opportunity to do the same job I was doing for another company, and I could work from HOME!! Which is what we've wanted for a long time. Problem is, the opening isn't for another couple of weeks, and I've been off work now for a few weeks already. So he's pushing me to take something else, and then just quit if I get the at-home job in a few weeks. I am not willing to do that because how much sense does it make to go through the interview process somewhere, negotiate salary, begin training and then quit. That's wasting my time and the company's time, and possibly burning my bridge with an employer I may need in the future.
So I'm still LOOKING at other job openings, but I'm not sending out resumes right now. He asks me pretty much every day when he gets home "Did you get a job today?" and I answer "No" and that's that. Now mind you, he's never had to "carry" me. I've always worked! He was in the army when we got married and was deployed for around 3 of the next 5 years. I was left completely alone to care for our children and run our household. Then, when he got out of the army, he applied to a technical college in WYOMING and just told me he was going...for 9 months, to the tune of $13,000, most of which we covered in student loans. I was left alone with 2 young children to fend for myself. The only income he had at the time was from the Nat'l Guard, which he used for his living expenses.
Any job he's ever taken (including ones where he worked 2nd or 3rd shift, taking him away from his family, and again leaving the child-rearing to me alone) he took without consulting me...
Anyhooo, it all adds up to me feeling like I just don't matter to him. He's said before that he would put up with anything to just not get divorced--I guess he didn't really factor in what I was willing to put up with.
Ack..........end of rant.
Caroline