bedokat

maybe it is a good thing that she thinks of you as her best friend. my boyfriend is my best friend. no he WAS my best friend, then he was my boyfriend and he still is my best friend. i think you should just give her time to realize how good you are. have you ever met her? it may be hard for her to think of you as something other than a friend if you haven't met her.

why does the guy you love hate you? was he your boyfriend? husband? i know that i wanted to committ suicide when my boyfriend wanted to leave me. but i did alot of things to hurt him very badly and i am very surprised that he didn't try to kill himself. what is the situation? i was all f-ed up off of a lot of drugs and ended up cheating and lying and a lot of bad things. he told me to leave our house and i sliced myself up pretty good. but now things are better i am going to counseling and that has helped ALOT. so what happened? how old are you? don't kill yourself. it isn't worth it. seriously. even if you think no one loves you there are people that do. does this guy know that you love him? becasue if he doesn't maybe there is someone that loves you that you don't know about. i too am saddened by the cruelty of the world but i look at it like yeah there are lots of things to be sad about but i can probably do something to make someone a little happier in life and have them think that maybe this world isnt so bad and then i feel better because i made someone else feel better.

i do have respect for myself. a few things have happened that led up t this.first off i had an abortion about a year and a half ago, and then my dad died last december. i was talking to my sister one night and we smoked some pot and that was it. i started doing all sorts of drugs. and i do respect my i don't even know if he is my boyfriend, but i do respect him. i cant give him space because all the friends i have are drug addicts. he was and is my best friend. we have never had any sort of problems or fights or anything until i started doing drugs. the person that i was when i was doing drugs isn't me. it was likesomeone invaded my body and took over. i dont know what to do. i love him so much. i miss him. i want him to talk to me and laugh with me and play video games with me and everything that we did before this mess. i hate myself so much for letting this happen. i hate drugs. i hate the people i know that do drugs. can people get over something like this? will things ever get better?

no, i couldn't control myself. i don't even know what happened. i didn't go out planning to cheat on my boyfriend. i was just going over to my friend's house. i have never ever cheated on anyone before. well, the the boyfriend i had before this one. but we weren't really together when i got with the boyfriend i had now so i don't believe that time counts. but no, i have never cheated, and he did trust me with everything. i am still living with him, and i am still taking care of his son and i just don't know what to do. i never wanted this to happen. i didn't think that it ever would.

I started doing drugs and drinking a couple of months ago. I was taking diet pills,aderol, ritilin, smoking pot and drinking for these two months. i started doing them all at the same time about 2 weeks ago. I got really f-ed up one night and cheated on my boyfriend with someone whom i thought was my friend. Obviosly he wasn't. Anyway my boyfriend knew and things have been really bad. I live with him and his son and have been for 2 years. I love him so much and he used to love me or maybe he still does, i don't know now. Our life has been very good until 2 months ago and i don't know what to do. I am starting counseling today and i am still living with him, and he doesn't seem like the same person. i hurrt him so very badly. i haven't done ANY drugs or anything in a week and i never will again. i told him that the girl that did those horrible things is dead and he tells me that the guy i used to know is too. what can i do? i feel as though he left and there is another person here now. please help.