Hi people and to all of u new to enotalone, I'm new here
So far, 2 yr. relation, however, my finace and me are waiting till marriage, we're both unexperience. It's true I'm till virgin, but I didn't told him nor anyone that it was out of luck, out of empathy this stranger had for me. Well fiance gonna celebrate my b-day today, it's really tomorrow, but he's got work tomorrow. Well see this took place, already a very long time ago, 8 years ago. Basically I had an argument with mom that day and well she say something real bad to me, complain that she wish I would bring home more A's than B's on report card, so I got so mad and just took off. I just took a long walk, I figure it would relieve of wut mother had say, but comes the scariest part which I get taken from behind. Tought at 12, I was alread 5"7", now I'm 5"10", still no match for the stranger, must have been like somewhere b/w 22-28 years old. He took me right in his truck, then drove somewhere I dunno, all I could think of trying remaining calm, no tears, no nothing, I figure that the more I get scare, the more likely he'll get frustrated and assault. When I first ask where is he taking me, he didn't answer. In my mind I was like "oh no, he's gonna rape me, I dunno nothing about this, I'm a virgin". Then kept saying how pretty I look, I thinking in my mind "Pretty, I'm only 12 u freak, u lunatic", but all I could say was "yea". Then he stops the car, I noticed there was a very long pause, but I didn't bother opening the door and getting out, I figure he'll catch me anyhow. But then suddently, he was like "No, I can't do it, this is wrong, and by the looks, ur just a kid" then he voice rose a little and he told me to get out of the car before he change his mind and push me out. Next thing I notice is he drove away. It's a relieve he didn't rape me and never heard from him again, but then till this day I keep thinking how wut if he's still there wondering waiting for other victims who might not be lucky. Reason I didn't report was cuz I keep thinking that if I did, he'll come back again and I might not be lucky again. That day off course mom was worry, I just lie about going with some friend who played a joke on me leaving me behind and me wondering around in the streets. Ok, so I have kept quiet all these years but the thought of him coming back is wut I can't stop thinking, wut if he has no sympathy this time and decides to rape or other girls. Wut if he already done this on other girls who didn't get lucky.
