Chaoticheart

I promised myself to come back to this forum if I ever did get back together with my ex, which is why I'm here now we've been together for 3 weeks already and this new relationship with him is just going so much more better than the old. We broke up officially in November, not even a week into my NC he started dating another girl and giving her all I wanted out of him. I was heartbroken. Really heartbroken. I ended up needing therapy and pulled myself out of depression. Honestly though I wouldn't have changed the events that happened I went from miserable codependant with a boyfriend that didn't give me anything to having 2 jobs, back in college and on track to get my own car and apartment again. I also was seeing someone else I thought was much better than my ex until earlier this month, he was the sweetest thing in the world at first, and then he started showing some abusive qualities my ex's timing was great, I can't say that I would've stayed away from the new guy after he promised change and seemed to be the sweetheart I first met. We openly talk about our "rebounds" his was more of a rebound than mine... I learned he met the girl off Tinder and moved fast out of loneliness, but the relationship was solely based on their children getting along. Quite honestly, if the other guy didn't show these red flags(hitting and throwing the cat, throwing things at me, being overly possessive after 1 month, etc) I would've stayed with him. I do miss him still. I just hope I'm not actually rebounding off him with my ex... I made my ex bend over backwards to come back too, and to show he changed for the better. So far so good This thread helped me a lot during my healing process, I'd read it for hope that he'd return until I no longer needed that hope as a crutch and walked away. I believe that's what helped him to come back, just me letting go of any possibility and living in what's going on in the present. So thanks everyone who's written their stories on here, and who's given me support.

Day 2 Laid in bed all day. I thought what I felt was because of my depression. I felt down, my heart ached but I was also dizzy. Turns out I had a high fever and am getting sick. So recovery should be my focal point. My thoughts still go to him and what he could be doing with his new girl. I feel physically sick everytime I entertain these thoughts. I still wonder if I cross his mind as well. I need to stop putting myself through this

Day 1 Broke contact because I needed to get some things off my chest- it was probably a stupid thing to do. He's with a new girl now and I realized he had told me he was too busy for a relationship... Guess not too busy for her... I know he was lying, I still wish to reconcile and this "not enough time" thought is making my heart sink. I'm focusing on an old hobby I loved to do in highschool.