treesandbees

Sunshine Usually Softens Harsh Intentions. LOVED

I'm scared to open and read my emails Gawd I am a coward this time of year.

Jesters Entertain With Exciting Liveliness. PILLS

I wonder how much I am aging myself by never getting enough sleep... my eyes are looking like crap.

Ugh. GD it obviously discussing you yesterday gave me a misery dream of you. You were in my parents house my parents were oddly still married and you were sleeping in my old bedroom and I wondered why my parents had you staying at their house when we have been broken up forever... and I go into the bedroom and see you tucked under a large heavy white down bed cover and I flick on a side table bed lamp and wake you up. I want to hug you and hold you but I resist the urge and you act like it is all normal and I ask what is going on here... because I think he left whomever and he blurts out he has been married for the last year, I am in shock and on his hand isn't a mens wedding band but a females diamond ring on his wedding finger but wasn't the ring he bought me !!!!!!! and I begin to cry and he of course vanishes .. I go to the balcony off my room and jump off it and land on the ground which is cold because of being winter and run of the driveway trying to find him...I am looking by a fence and my sister suddenly appears to share some wisdom, according to her and isn't helpful. I wake up crying and overwhelmed with sadness. MY cat wakes up, walks up and over my pillow and pushes her head under the covers and snuggles me as I cry and we both fall back to sleep. My dreams are no even a safety net for me.

Cushions Help Envelop Each Rester. FRESH

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

Lol I like how your word matches your s/n Some Kittens Ignite Richard's Terror. JOKES

Give Love Openly Vera Encouraged. APPLE

^ Very nice. Wish that was true for me and more than my own wishful thinking.

Horrible Bosses lol

Please Love All The Entities. TRUST

Guns N Roses - Nighttrain

The Hour Usually Moves Briefly GOALS

No Doubt - Don't Speak.

Also my therapist thinks before the end of this year I should get closure and call your sister ( because she felt the same way re your behaviors as I did and your mom only excused you), but I don't know if I can.

Just because I am not reaching out since your bday doesn't mean I don't think of you, love you less or any of that nonsense like I don't care if you live or die, Bs to all of that it means I am barely hanging on and cannot take another set back before Christmas.

Can Love Ever Accept Nitpickers. PRIZE

Youths Use Colorful Kool ( I cheated lol) Yoyos. GIANT

I cannot sleep, my nose is plugged and spitting gross yucky stuff up.

Seven Tall Angels Called Kevin. GUSTY

Drive ( again lol) It's a favorite.

^ I saw that online today too. Died in his sleep while on his tour bus and was only 48 y.o. Robyn- With Every Heartbeat

Show Her Only Real Emotions. PIZZA

Nice poems, the both of you. I find closure super difficult.