No problem, I appreciate your curiosity and thank you!
There is no real reason for me to move, my parents both live inter state so it's an option for me to move there and start afresh, I don't have any problems where I live, I just see it as an opportunity and thought I would consider it as I see nothing here for me. There is definitely no hope of us being together until she comes home which is in December, and even then I don't know (as I haven't spoken to her for 4 months). I don't understand the bold part - sorry!
I guess I say hopeless as a weak excuse, I have tried to move on I have been with other girls and even have a girl interstate who likes me but I don't see in the new girl or any of the girls I have been with what I want, only in the one I can't have (right now, if at all).
Your part, in love with her or the idea is a great question, but well - she's not perfect, but she is just what I want and I haven't come accross that in anyone else - she tought me so much, without even trying.
I know she will talk to me, she has never once turned her back on me despite my somewhat upsetting moments, she has understood and she too was upset with our break up - sometimes more upset with how much she was hurting me than how much it hurt her. (she said). You're right she may have changed, I guess by contacting her is the only way I can find out - but it's hard to put it on her as she is so wrapped up in what she is doing overseas and how (once more) busy she is.
I guess I will have to wonder if she has thought about me, she told me a few times previously that things reminded her of me, but I didn't know if that mean things all the time or just that she wouldn't even think of me and something may remind her of me.
Thanks again.