Heartbroken at rehoming my dog

Hello... Background to my story is that I already had two dogs... A big girl sharpei cross 8 years old and a jack Russell cross boy 3 years old (two years ago) when I got my new dog at 10 weeks old a jack Russell cross tiny girl. The initial reason we got her was because the family that lived in our street weren't looking after her properly, letting their little kids carry/drag her around unleashed in all weathers.. Anyway at first my boy dog would growl at this new arrival but she was unfazed by this, whereas my big dog was indifferent to her.. Eventually all three could be together without the need of a cage but as my little dog grew (not much she's still very tiny) , she grew aggressive, mostly towards my big girl and mostly food aggression, although this could happen if their would happen to be say a pack of biscuits nearby or one of us had a snack and big girl came near. This would be a full blown aggressive attack with little dog biting at neck or rear or anywhere she could get hold of big dog and my initial fear was big dog would kill her (she's quite an intimidating looking dog) but it soon became clear that although big dog initially tried to fight back ,she soon surrendered and was yelping in pain whilst we were trying to unlock little dogs jaws from her and once during such an altercation my son got bitten trying to break up fight. This aggression progressed to little dog attacking big dog for no reason other than perhaps big dog walked past her or big dog got up from bed to move elsewhere. Little dog also started to become aggressive to people she didn't know or indeed did know but didn't see on a regular basis. We tried everything we thought would help, separating them via a purpose built gate that was high enough to stop little dog jumping over but low enough so she could hear/see us and vica versa for other two dogs, to muzzling her and keeping them together, needless to say the attacks still happened. Now I know I have to assert a lot of blame onto myself as I don't feel I socialised properly, a walk round the block daily and field runs at weekends, but walking her was hard if she was not muzzled as if people went to pet her she would lunge at them .. We decided maybe we should try to rehome her and took her to a dog rescue but she lunged snapped and caught the hand of the rescue lady who then refused to take her. Secretly I felt happy that I got to take her hone again but unhappy that I still had this dilemma. Whenever my sister or other friends would visit I either had to lock her away or muzzle her but usually it was lock her away as she frightened them and would scratch and claw trying to bite, which she would of succeeded had she not been muzzled, but with those she loves and trusts including young children she is the softest lovliest most loving dog. My daughter who lives with me is now pregnant with twins and with my little dogs ever growing aggression we felt to maybe re try rehoming and I found a rescue place who assessed her and said they would try to rehab her but were unsure if it would work as she was so fear/food aggressive and told me to bring her back in two weeks. That was Saturday when I took her, she went for the rescue lady and the foster lady and I started to panic as they took her leash and said maybe I should just take her back home as she is unpredictable aggressive. The lady said to me "but how is that going to help her, let us try to help her" so reluctantly I signed her over. Since then the rescue have sent me videos of my little girl running around a huge garden with four other dogs. Sitting tail wagging exitedly waiting for the man in the video to throw the ball for her, running after it , bringing it back, pictures of her on a walk with four other dogs sitting patiently with them waiting for a treat and this lightens my heart but at the same time I don't understand how they have managed to do what I couldn't in two short days. There is also a picture of her laying on her bed, eyes half open and she looks so thoughtful and I wonder, is she thinking if me wondering where I am. I even fantasise about how I could get her back, kidnap her back, its crazy I know but I miss her so so much and obsessively look for updates on her on the rescue site. I can't stop thinking about her and worry constantly that she us thinking, where is my mum, when is my mum coming to get me. Will she be thinking thus, will she be upset and fretting, will she ever be truly happy again. Do you think I did the right thing under the circumstances.

Absolutely you did the right thing. She was going to severely injure a person or another dog. Be happy that they were able to rehabilitate her so that she could socialize and be a dog. An aggressive fearful dog wasn't a happy dog. She would have had to be put down eventually for being too aggressive. Be happy she's not that way any longer.

Ty for your input Victoria... I feel I'm going mad obsessing about her and wondering just how they've managed to then her around in these few days to how she us aooearjng to be to me in these videos they send me where she us happily with other dogs and strangers and why I couldn't if done that??? And kept her cause she grukyoved us.. I feel I've failed her x

Sorry for spelling mistakes ... I meant truly loved us

Just remember rescues have a lot of people who are professionals in rehabilitating dogs. They want to be able to adopt these dogs out.

I know it is hurtful to have to give up an animal I only ever gave up one animal before. This cat was completely psycho and when he attacked my 19 month old son I'd had enough. But he went to my in-laws so we could see him anytime and he was still just as psycho. He lived the life of a pampered prince for another eight years.

Ty for your input Victoria... I feel I'm going mad obsessing about her and wondering just how they've managed to then her around in these few days to how she us aooearjng to be to me in these videos they send me where she us happily with other dogs and strangers and why I couldn't if done that??? And kept her cause she grukyoved us.. I feel I've failed her x

Go on youtube and watch some Cesar Milan The Dog Whisperer episodes - you'll gain some good insight on where things went wrong and why with other people the change was so quick.

The overall environment probably just wasn't right for little dog. Often aggression comes from either viciousness or insecurity, the ones that are easy to fix being the latter.

I'm sure little dog loved you lots, but didn't feel secure in your home or with your family. By no fault of your own.

You did the right thing! They have professionals at rescues to identify her issues and help place her in a home where she can thrive.