Well today was the last day I was going to see my girlfriend before I went away to Austria for 2 weeks. I was looking forward to seeing her after not seeing her for a few days. Didn't have anything planned, we were just going to hang out for a bit, watch some movies, eat pizza, have sex etc etc.
Anyway, we were together in my room, just hugging. She was really quiet and something was not quite right. I asked her and she said it was nothing and started to gently kiss me. She then stopped and sat up. I asked her to tell me what was wrong, but she was deadly quiet. She then came out with "I don't want to be in a relationship."
I was stunned, I really didn't know what to say. I asked her why and she told me that it scares her. I asked her what she was trying to say, and then asked if she was trying to tell me it was over. She started to cry and nodded. I was in a state of shock. I began shaking. I love this girl with all my heart, and I'd do anything for her.
She took it back soon after and said she just wanted some space, that she loves me too much to lose me. I still couldn't say anything. She left my house, but gave me a big hug and a kiss at the door. I could barely say a word other than "please, stay". She said she couldn't. Her tears stopped and she started joking around with me, acting all calm. I watched her leave, and I'm really scared its for the last time.
I don't know what to do. I'm going away tomorrow and I hate leaving things like this. She's everything to me, and I don't know whats going to happen. It hurts too much. I feel all alone.