I'm not here to get you to talk me out of killing myself...it won't work. I've had over two months to contemplate this...and it's going to happen. My life's not heading anywhere, and it's in complete shambles right now...I can barely function, and I just want to end it all.
I don't want to die slowly in pain and without guarantee, however, and that is the purpose for why I'm here. I've thought about stabbing myself with a knife, but I'm unsure of how painful that would be, or if I'd die as quick as I imagine. Ideally, I'd have a gun with which I could put the muzzle in my mouth and fire, which I think would be the quickest and most painless way to die, but I don't have a gun, nor the proper licenses to get one, so I'm stuck with household things.
Jumping off a building is out of the question, I'm too afraid of heights to pull it off, and besides, it's attention-grabbing. I don't need crowds gathering around my corpse. I just want to quickly pull off my death on my own time while calm and alone. So what are your suggestions?