Your journal is so moving.
I'm an only child, Vic. I'll be honest with you - there have been times that I've been conscious of the fact that when I don't have my parents anymore I won't have any immediate blood relatives. I think I'm more conscious of this than someone like my cousin (who is also an only child) who thinks of me as a sister and so doesn't quite feel that way. But can I say.. while I felt like that at a time when I was less happy with my life.. having gotten married.. I now feel that even when my parents do pass.. they'll always be in my heart and I'll never be alone (in terms of immediate blood relatives). I feel like I am a product of all they have put into me and I will carry that around forever and carry their love around forever. I think reaching a truly happy place in life and in my heart - has made me see that I'll never be alone despite not having sibblings.