Who knew I'd feel THIS good!

[willow2900]

Wow,

If you read nothing but this sentence that's fine GET BETTER!! GIVE IT TIME!![/b]

 

If you read any of my posts I broke up with my ex in October, left the house in December and was devastated when he had a new girlfirend in 5 days.

 

Time does help. I've had a LOT of ups and downs but I feel so, so good right now! I realized that I truly can't see myself EVER trusting him again. Maybe one day, maybe not. But right now, I'm not even interested in him. I am happy that he is happy (or believes he's happy.) I just realized 2 weeks ago that if I couldn't trust him, anything future with him is certain doom. I deserve better than that. I deserve affection, love, support and happiness without so much being drained from me.

 

I have been slowly dragging all the pics on the computer into the Recycle bin of him and tonight I erased everything. It felt great! Not that I don't want to remember, but I don't need the constant reminder! I didn't think I would EVER be ready to do that, but magically, tonight I was.

 

I haven't felt this happy with myself in a long, long time. I think back and it was probably when I first started dating him 3 years ago. Not to say that it was all bad but I think I sacrificed a lot of myself for him, and with that, I lost touch of myself a lot. I truly feel good. And I never thought I ever would. I thought my despair and anguish was going to be with me forever. Now I am not disillusioned to the fact that there still might be some hard stuff to deal with but for the first time in a long time I feel like I can without completely losing it. And for the first time in a long time as well I can honestly say that I don't want to be with him. And I don't know if I ever will feel that again.

 

I am happy. And I am happy with myself for being happy. It's such a good feeling! I just had to share the news. There is life after love!

[mikeca]

Wow,

If you read nothing but this sentence that's fine GET BETTER!! GIVE IT TIME!![/b]

 

Thereis life after love!

 

 

all good until you had to quote the cher song...

[Wandering_Sword]

Congratulations! Healing and recovery are the next best things to hear besides reconciliation stories. Now that you're ready to tackle the world, what do you plan on doing next? Exotic trip? Take up anew hobby?