Not minding my sadness anymore.

[blueangel]

I lost a friend and

It made me scared to ever

Feel again.

 

I lost my love

For a lot in life

cant stare straight

Into eyes- I turn away

And your eyes, although they sparkle blue

I feel so lost inside myself

So I just see through you too

Into empty spaces, clouds around my head

walking quicker through the haze

Into the shadows of my dread

 

I felt her over me, a ghost it seemed

I felt the darkness come alive

Crying out, feeling so haunted

I haven't felt this way for a long time

Since the day I learned you died

 

Friendships seem so quick and over

It's hard to participate today

because something holding me down

I hate that it's the fact I'm afraid

 

Over my grief and have said my goodbyes

Yet at the same time, i cant deny

That on these faces around me

These smiles

I realize no one knows me now

But I know myself so well

I'm all I have

It's kind of sad

I know

I know i have to get out

Fast

 

Maybe then I'll be happy

 

 

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[yeawutever]

That's a creative one indeed!!!!!!

[blueangel]

Wow. You know how after you read something you wrote a while after you wrote it...how you can perceive it differently? Well, I just read my poem and I find it pathetic. A poor attempt. It's too bad I'm too scared of plagarizers to post my good ones. Oh well!

[AnotherBrokenDoll]

I know that feeling well When you read something you thought was ok then realise it wasn't nearly as good as you thought. IT happens all the time. Maybe its because at that moment thats what you wanted to express, those emotions are from before so you don't see as you did. But i still think it was an awesome poem. I like all your work.

[blueangel]

I tried fixing it a little, aligning it more specifically with my personal experiences rather than just acknowledging them. I just want someone to know how I feel inside.