JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 1, 2006 Share Posted December 1, 2006 Feel the cold metal slice accross your skin feel your warm blood and make a design. Carve into your skin and watch the blood form make another little slice but just a bit deeper lick the blood from your blade and taste the stentch of all your lies feel any pain? any shame? no? of course not... your heart is cold and your soul is black your eyes are empty and you do not regret with a heart so cold you cannot feel with a soul so black you cannot live so go ahead and make the design in your twisted mind. Link to comment
Ellie2006 Posted December 1, 2006 Share Posted December 1, 2006 JYAG, a very powerful poem ... although I must admit that I am quite saddened by it But I suppose that what good poetry is all about: allowing both the reader and the writer to experience a range of emotions. Link to comment
JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 1, 2006 Author Share Posted December 1, 2006 a...."friend" inspired me to write this poem...its about him Link to comment
AnotherBrokenDoll Posted December 1, 2006 Share Posted December 1, 2006 Its a really good poem, i'm sorry about you "friend"... Remember we are all here for you. Link to comment
Juliana Posted December 1, 2006 Share Posted December 1, 2006 Pull your friend up and make him run with you in the night. Tell him you found a door. Tell him you saw some light. Tell him. Link to comment
JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 1, 2006 Author Share Posted December 1, 2006 thats...not gonna work...hes different. doesnt believe in the christian god-like me- doesnt believe in humanity, thinks most humans are poor pathetic creatures- which some are- and he does what he needs to take care of himself. honestly...if you look into his eyes, like really look, they look dead. theres soem other stuff to explain to but i kno if i told anyone on here i would be labeled as "crazy, lunatic, psycho, stupid, etc" and none of you would believe me so im not even gonna try Link to comment
darkling Posted December 1, 2006 Share Posted December 1, 2006 JustYourAverageGirl, OMG!! I sooooo love this poem. I'm not afraid to say that I've done the very thing your friend has, my scars are my own, and they serve as reminders. This is now a favorite of mine...thank you for sharing. JustYourAverageGirl, about the other stuff you say we wouldn't believe, try us....although I'm new here, the people are knowledgable, friendly and most important they don't judge you. Link to comment
Juliana Posted December 1, 2006 Share Posted December 1, 2006 "thats...not gonna work...hes different. doesnt believe in the christian god-like me- doesnt believe in humanity" I'm sorry; did I give the impression I was talking about God? I didn't intend to. I meant it literally; grab him and drag him away. Link to comment
JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 1, 2006 Author Share Posted December 1, 2006 me drag him? i couldnt force him to do ANYTHING...unless i wanted to have night terrors again Link to comment
Juliana Posted December 2, 2006 Share Posted December 2, 2006 You think he'll attack you psychically if you attempt to help him? By the way, I wasn't talking about God, but I'm Christian. Link to comment
JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 2, 2006 Author Share Posted December 2, 2006 no not physically Link to comment
Juliana Posted December 2, 2006 Share Posted December 2, 2006 You mentioned you didn't want night terrors again. I didn't say physically; let me be more clear: Do you think he will attack you telepathically? Link to comment
JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 3, 2006 Author Share Posted December 3, 2006 yeah, he has before Link to comment
Juliana Posted December 3, 2006 Share Posted December 3, 2006 Is he doing it intentionally, or is it just that his emotions are so amped up they wash over and overwhelm? Link to comment
JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 4, 2006 Author Share Posted December 4, 2006 intentionally, only when i "deserve" it or upset him Link to comment
AnotherBrokenDoll Posted December 4, 2006 Share Posted December 4, 2006 Hey you never deserve to be punished... Seriously be carefull ok. No one wants you to get hurt. Link to comment
Juliana Posted December 4, 2006 Share Posted December 4, 2006 Do you have any ability of your own, apart from hearing him? Link to comment
JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 4, 2006 Author Share Posted December 4, 2006 yeah...but not nearly as strong as him Link to comment
Juliana Posted December 5, 2006 Share Posted December 5, 2006 How much do you love him, and how strong is your sense of self? You should be able to retain a concept of your own identity that can take what he's throwing. You should be able to "extinguish" it in your own mind, then reach back and re-conceptualize the issue for him to consider; like a conversation. Can you do that? Can you "talk" to each other? Link to comment
JustYourAverageGirl Posted December 5, 2006 Author Share Posted December 5, 2006 no. i am a beginner, he is a master. i know im not as powerful as him because i once thought i was and was sadly mistaken. i can not counter his attacks. and i do not cross him. Link to comment
Juliana Posted December 6, 2006 Share Posted December 6, 2006 Hmm. Interesting terminology; "master," "beginner." I wonder if people define their ability to speak out loud that way. Demystify this in your own mind, for starters. This isn't a skill that is acquired through incantations or acts or anything like this; this is something you are born with. Probably everyone can do it; not everyone does. I am not into the things you guys are into, and I've done this all my life. Give that some thought. Sometimes, you are only as small as you make yourself. Link to comment
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