DeviantOne Posted October 7, 2006 Share Posted October 7, 2006 Never will I be the same Not after all this pain I have scars up and down my wrist But the cutting still persist I try to end my pain filled life But it's so hard with the knife I push it down so the blade sinks in Then I slide so it cuts the skin No matter how hard I try I can't seem to f**king die I can't take this anymore The pains so hard to ignore I grab a rope and make it loose So my head can fit through the noose I grab the knot and make it tight Hopefully I can die tonight I kick and gag for some air Then I stop as I'm hanging there I think it worked I see the light I hope this is my final night Then I decided it can't end this way So I cut the rope so I can stay Now when I sit and cry I don't wish that I may die Only that I can ignore the pain Knowing nothing can be the same So instead of leaving without a fight I will live another night I think ill put the knife away Hoping the pain wont forever stay I want to tell you how much I care But your leaving me it's just not fair I love you more and more each day I hate the day you go away I don't know what I will do Or if I can live without you Never will I say goodbye Not until the day I die And in that day I hope your there So I can tell you how much I care My heart will never get a rest Cause ill love you even after death Ill sit in heaven and wait for you That's how I know my love is true I hope someday it will be I wake up and it's you I see To wake up to you by my side Is a feeling I could never describe I doubt my dreams will come true But I will always love you It's the day I die That ill say goodbye When I lose you ill take out the knife And wait for you in my after life Link to comment
Fallout Posted October 7, 2006 Share Posted October 7, 2006 That is a beautiful poem...you do have talent, too bad it comes from sadness and pain..I hope it won't always have to. Link to comment
rose2summer Posted October 7, 2006 Share Posted October 7, 2006 Hey DO, You are undergoing a great deal of pain. Have you taken measures to stop the cutting? Hugs, Rose Link to comment
Ms. Babydoll Posted October 8, 2006 Share Posted October 8, 2006 Hope you stop cutting, it'll get you nowhere. Good poem though. Link to comment
AnotherBrokenDoll Posted October 8, 2006 Share Posted October 8, 2006 Heyz, ok firstly wow! Thats an amazing poem. I totally love it. Everyone so far has said they're sorry you cut and i am to if you do. I have a question to ask though. Is everything you say in your poetry true of is it just the way you write? See i know many people (myself inluded) who write alot about suicide and attempts of the future that they never plan to act on its just the way they vent. Back to your poem though. I totally love it and its really touching because i have felt alot of the pain in your poem so i relate to alot of it. If you ever want to talk just PM me or add my msn address: email removed lame i know! Link to comment
DeviantOne Posted October 9, 2006 Author Share Posted October 9, 2006 everything in my poems is true. i write from the heart. i have attempted suicide before, but i was... rescued (if you wanna put it that way). after that my shrink said i should put all my emotions into something productive like poetry instead of taking it out on myself. i still cut though, im trying to stop but its one of the hardest things to do. its like a drug that im addicted too. Link to comment
AnotherBrokenDoll Posted October 9, 2006 Share Posted October 9, 2006 I totally understand what you mean... Cutting helps even for a little while so you don't want to give up on it. But i am glad you're seeing a shrink and that you are putting your emotions on paper. They make great reads Link to comment
DeviantOne Posted October 10, 2006 Author Share Posted October 10, 2006 thank you so much. ita always good to hear that people like my work. oh and i added you to my hotmail. Link to comment
Rickster Posted October 10, 2006 Share Posted October 10, 2006 DeviantOne, really loved your poem... The poem described the situation I once was in. My scar hasn't faded away yet and I don't think it ever will. But it's a good poem, and I feel your emotions. If it's ok to ask... how did you loose your loved one? Link to comment
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