joyce1412 Posted September 10, 2006 Share Posted September 10, 2006 the last two weeks have been really bad for me. found out my ex might be seeing a "friend" of mine and was really crushed. on top of it, my senior year of college was just starting, and it felt extremely overwhelming. i've cried more in the last two weeks than i have in the last two months combined. i was very, very depressed and the littlest things made me burst into tears. now, i'm at my parents' house for the weekend...i live in a big city and my parents are in a small town. i feel more relieved, relaxed, and over it than i have in weeks or months. for the past couple of days, i've actually felt okay being a single woman. i've felt okay about what i'm doing with my life, and so at ease. such a contrast to how i was feeling at my place. i had been thinking about wanting to hurt myself, about not wanting to exist. now i feel light as a feather. i feel this can only be explained by the fact that i'm out of the city. which leads me to wonder if i should consider moving. it seems i only realize how suffocated i feel there whenever i get out. i am so tired of the superficiality of the city and the people. nothing there is genuine. it is convenient, it is fun, it is so many things, but it makes me feel hollow. naturally, it's also the city where my ex lives. that has to have something to do with it, along with the fact that i get unconditional love from my parents here. but wow...i can't tell you how much better it feels to be out, and how much dread i feel about going back. i just felt like getting those feelings out. hopefully someone can relate? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Strictly4MyGrind Posted September 10, 2006 Share Posted September 10, 2006 I wish i could get away from it all like you as well, i am going to start college on monday and ill see my ex and i just cant handle it that combined with the stress of college, damn. Your lucky that your parents are there for you also, i live with my parents but there not much help. I hope everything turns out okay for you, best of luck. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
annie24 Posted September 10, 2006 Share Posted September 10, 2006 a change of scenery is very helpful after a brakeup. yeah, sure, when you graduate, apply to jobs in some small cities also. you have a while to think about things. I am glad you are feeling better! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
renaissancewoman101 Posted September 10, 2006 Share Posted September 10, 2006 I was devastated when my ex broke up with me. I ended up doing a complete life change and moved away from Wisconsin back to CA. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scout Posted September 10, 2006 Share Posted September 10, 2006 I really like your post, Joyce! Definitely the sense of true love that you know your parents have for you is a wonderful balm for your hurt feelings. Good call on making a visit back home! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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