Stinkweed Posted May 1, 2006 Share Posted May 1, 2006 I just feel like I took a dive off of the airplane, but I know my parachute hasn't been working well... It might not open! I might go splat! Or it might open and get the job done bringing much desperation on my way down... You know, will it make it all the way? I had to take such jump, because if not I'd be a chicken, or just trash... There's really no way back anymore... I mean, there might be, but it's not really an option... It just makes me so mad! To be held down and restrained like this without any options... I don't call this a life if I can't really be myself. If I am told I did really have a choice, but I could tell I didn't. I'm so sick of it... I really have nothing to look forward to, and I'm pretty sure I'll be making the exact same mistakes I've been making over the years and a great depression. And don't you tell me that it'll be my fault, because if I had really had the choice, I wouldn't be feeling any of this, I know! I feel like I am not a person, but just some unhappy thing that really has no life of its own. Will I one day look back and say I did the right thing? I've hardly ever had such sweet thoughts in my entire life. But I am a person, why didn't I just go my own way? Why did I have to listen to others? Why do I care about what they think? Link to comment
ariyadhana Posted May 1, 2006 Share Posted May 1, 2006 You are 18, what is the situation you are in that you feel you are unable to break free from? Link to comment
Stinkweed Posted May 2, 2006 Author Share Posted May 2, 2006 You might not think it is a problem big enough to make me feel this way... But it does make me feel this way, and I just think maybe it's not normal... But why? I was still decently happy 2 months ago... Of course I still had choices, and "time to think" (about nothing I guess, because I guess I never really had much of a choice). Link to comment
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