Grinch2017 Posted February 3, 2018 Share Posted February 3, 2018 I was beginning to accept things and then boom 💥 my colleague who was mutual friends with my ex tells me his new girlfriends name is Kate (I think what?!). Kate messaged him whilst we were together she's the ex before his last and my understanding was she put water in his face and bit herself at a party blaming him. So family didn't really get on with her per se. When she text he showed me and his cousin the text as if it was an achievement but Ross says he didn't message her for many months after (basically when we split possibly before after who knows). When me and my ex broke up he used the didn't want to be in a relationship wanted to get smashed and if he did want a relationship it would be with me - turns out that was a lie 🙄. It's taking everything out of me to function normally feel like I'm carrying the weight of the world 🌎. So many rubbish things have happened th last couple of months I'm struggling to cope it's rubbish. I'm trying to not let him break me but he's already given me herpes, sucked my confidence dry, treated me like a doormat, showed me I don't matter and frankly is not a decent person to me. I've also got psoriasis and had it for a while when I get stressed! 🤦♂️ Which makes it uncomfortable to go to the gym. So Just feeling like with all my issues maybe I should have stayed in the relationship it honestly messes with your self esteem terribly I can't imagine being with someone else. What's even more upsetting is that boys/men always call me beautiful etc and I'm just like meh! I don't feel it! 😱 People say I should have so much confidence I just don't and it's so debilitating. So hard living with some deep regrets ! Anyone any ideas I do CBT Link to comment
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