my3lans Posted December 20, 2017 Share Posted December 20, 2017 I won't lie. I still love him. I still miss him. But now I'm starting to get angry. Why couldn't he just have the balls to tell me he wanted out? Why did he have to ghost? And why can't I get a good reason besides this "I'm overwhelmed right now with my job and (grown) kids" bull? I was good to him. I was good for him. HE is the one that started saying "I love you" and wanting us to move in together and wanting our (grown) kids to meet, etc. Yes, it developed quickly. But we had known each other for so long before we started dating it just didn't feel that way. It felt good. It felt right. We were both finally happy. And then the very next week.... I am still struggling to understand. Each day I cry a little less. But I'm struggling now to control my anger. I want to let everyone know what a wuss he was and that he's not the "great and wonderful guy" everyone thinks he is. I know I need to be the bigger person but it's so hard for me to do. I deserved a better ending that what I got. I deserved REAL answers. And I'm angry that I'm never going to get them. I want to punch him. I'm deliberately avoiding a funeral for parents of mutual friends because I don't want to run into him. I am just not able to control my emotions right now and don't want to cause a scene. I cannot wait until after the holidays so I can start my kickboxing class! Just a vent. Link to comment
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