Mr Single Posted October 13, 2017 Share Posted October 13, 2017 so in the summer of 2015 I met this girl named Caroline. we met during this summer musical that we were both doing and from the moment that we met we just clicked. and that's when I fell in love. I know I'm only 19 but like I know I fell in love with her because I fell in love with the simple things about her. the way she smiled, the color of her eyes, her laugh, the way she rubbed her thumb on the top of my hand.. you get the picture. and then after the musical, I got introduced to her parents and the next day they said we couldn't date, later because of our age (she's less than two years younger than me and people think her parents are racist because I'm black and her family including her is white) and things started spiraling out of control since then. we'd occasionally flirt, or have talks and sometimes things even got heated and intimate between the two of us (not sexual, but like we'd almost kiss. I know it doesn't seem like a lot, but it really meant something to me). but she was constantly becoming more distant. she stopped replying to my texts, wouldn't try to communicate when I need clarity from her and I couldn't talk to any of my friends about it because they soon became annoyed or just didn't know what to say or do. I go to a counselor once a week and basically have spent a lot of my time there discussing Caroline. I know, I'm supposed to get over her, and trust me I have tried, but I can't. it's been over two years since we met and I still can't move on simply because she's everything I ever wanted and she made me the happiest I've ever been period. never in my life has anything, not even myself made me as happy as she did. the simplest things became enjoyable, and now whenever I accomplish something I was she was there to enjoy and celebrate it with me. I've tried to talk to other girls too, and they've all been great, but they weren't Caroline. this situation has sent me into months long depressions (I suffer from MDD), suicidal thoughts, and anxiety, these also being an amalgamation of other things going on in my life, including transitioning from high school to college last year. but what do I do? I honestly don't want to give up because I still have this gut feeling she's the one, but at the same time it's mentally, physically and emotionally destroying me that no matter what I do, I can't be truly happy without her. please help. Link to comment
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