Hope2011 Posted October 31, 2011 Share Posted October 31, 2011 I was in a three year relationship with a girl who wanted me terribly. I was in school and very busy with many things going on: school related, work related, and family related. I was not ready for a relationship and as a result we were not dating, but she still wanted me in her life. I told her she could leave and she still wanted the relationship to work out. I was not ready and as a result I talked to other girls and made a few mistakes to push the girl out of my life. I tried many ways to end the relationship but she still wanted to make it work and I still liked her. I tried to make it work to. We even lived with each other for a short time. But it was not until I graduted from college and she transferred to a new school that our relationship fell apart. I became jobless, got laid off by employer because they hired too many people, that I found out that I love her. I was low in confidence and tried to push her into dating. I am another state then her and as a result she rejected me over the phone. I sent her flowers, sent love letters,told her I would move to where she is, cried on the phone, and begged. I did all the wrong things. She said her reasons was because she could not trust me and needed to heal. I resepect her, but I still love her. She still loves me and misses me for that matter. We are not trying the best friend thing, month after the unofficial break-up and it's not working out for me because I want her back so much. We have talked via phone a few times, I will admit, ita hard on me. She is in college and is doing the whole partying and she smokes weed a whole lot. She says she is happy, which I am glad for. I have deleted her in my FaceBook and blocked her. I want her back, but can't do this best friend thing. The NC makes me miss her so much and makes me think if all the new guys she is meeting, parties she's going to, and crazy things she's doing. I love her so much and I feel like I messed up, solely, the relationship. I didnt know what I had, till I lost it. I have tried the NC, but have not lasted a full week. She has not lasted a full week. Even though she appears or even is happy ..... it hurts knowing she can live without me. I need some major advice. I am not sure what to do-- stay her friend or just stop talking to her till she wants me back in her life. We have started to talk in the phone, we didn't before. I am not sure what to do-- please help. Link to comment
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