shortest_straw90 Posted October 29, 2011 Share Posted October 29, 2011 Okay so I got back with my ex on Wednesday night, I was happier than ever but skeptical, I was aware of the risks I was taking but I just couldnt help myself. Thursday I picked her up from work she said she was going out that night, I was a little paranoid but I knew I couldnt be too forward with anything at that point. We went to get something to eat before I dropped her off at home but their was an atmosphere (I knew it wasnt going to be perfect straight away) Im not sure how to describe it, it was like she just couldnt wait to get away from me. We talked on facebook for a bit before she went out, she said she was going shopping after work the day after so I asked her if she wanted a lift home or any company because Id missed going going shopping with her, she just kept changing the subject. Friday she phoned in sick at work because she was hungover so when I finished work I went over to hers to see how she was. She seemed fine by the time I'd got there but the thing is she still didnt want me to go shopping with her like she was planning something. I said to her your going to meet him arent you, she said yes I want to tell him whats going on to his face, I said ok thats fair enough but I can still take you, she agreed so we went. Well on the way down we got into an argument and I ended up meeting this guy and telling him that she was back with me (big mistake). After that she said she didnt want to be with me and that she wanted to be with him, so I said thats fine but why did you have to get my hopes up that you wanted to be with me? She said she thought she wanted me. Ive come to the conclusion that she definitely doesnt want me, all it is is that she cares for me a small amount but not enough to rekindle anything. Now Im back to where I started, I feel needy, lonely, upset and helpless. I want her back but dont want her back. Ive got a feeling her and this guy are both going to loose their jobs next month and I think she might try and get back with me then when she had no money and cant afford to get the bus. I cant do it to myself though. I need to get over her. But Im desperate for her love again, I miss her so much already, why cant love just be easy? Help please Ive got nowhere else to turn to anymore, I need your help guys Im such mess again. Cant sleep properly again and I think since the start of this whole break up a few weeks ago Ive developed an eating disorder. Please reply asap Im so upset. Link to comment
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