I don't know what to do w/ myself

[georgie77889]

I'm not happy w/ myself, but for the past few years I've tried to push myself further, hoping that things will get better. Once in awhile, things go well. But so often, I find myself relapsing, and miserable. I have my whole life in front of me, but at times, I feel like I could just fall over and give up.

 

I'm tired of living such a boring life-- but this I can't change, I'm still in school and I need to work. What I've always wanted was a wonderful boyfriend. But that's not happening. I know... I've heard it all before, I've even said it myself as advice to others-- you have plenty of time for guys, you'll meet Mr. Right, a guy should not be your number one priority, etc, etc, etc.... I'd need to love myself first to be in a healthy relationship, but I don't even know where to start anymore.

 

I don't know what I'm doing w/ myself anymore. I don't have any energy. I feel like I'm just drifting away. Everything's just passing me by, and it all means nothing. Everything is starting to bring me down even more. When I try to show interest in a guy, I get too shy and just wait for things to happen. Whenever someone else criticizes me, I take it really hard. I do'nt know what to do anymore...

 

I feel like such a waste....

[behind_these_eyes]

I know *exactly* how you feel. Unfortunately, if I had any really good advice to give, I'd probably already have been able to help myself. All I can tell you is that you are not the only one. I think everyone goes through this. I don't know what to tell except that you can talk to me any time.

[Angel88]

Most of us have felt that way before, if not worse. You'll be fine, I think you're just going through a growth process, and when it's all over, you'll value yourself a lot more.

[georgie77889]

Yeahh... I've told myself this before.

But now I'm just tired of all of it.

 

Anyone else w/ input? #-o