stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 I've woken this morning feeling very sad. It's Thursday once again, my day off, what was our day. This girl has really effected me, never before have I been So hurt, no matter what I am doing I see her face, she's smiling at me, she's telling me how special I am and how she wants a life with me. I miss her So much, day 39 nc now and still that terrible feeling of loss hits me, I feel so empty without her, us, I've truly lost my love, my world. Will I ever recover ? I don't know, for now the tears stream down my face. I love you ex, I wish you were mine x Link to comment
ferna3069 Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 x marks the the spot of pain. i know how painfult it feels when you loose some one so close to your heart its day 39 of no contact how long had you two been apart? Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 After some very mixed signals I got my closure 40 days ago. Did the whole begging and pleading before that for a month ish. Link to comment
equinox Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 Earlier this year, a girl with whom I had a long term, long distance, releationship was meant to visit me for a week in my home city. I had the time booked off work, tickets purchased to take her places and generally, a great week planned out. She was meant to come on sunday the 23rd of Janurary and call me when her flight landed; the call never came and neither did she. Not only that, I recieved no contact from her to explain anything, she just didn't come and that was that. I went back to work that monday instead of taking the leave. I can't describe how I felt that monday morning as I woke up and made my daily commute but I can tell you that I have never felt so low in all my life. But, it's three months later and whilst I am anything but happy with what happened, I think less and less about it. Your situiation WILL improve, just keep your chin up. Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 Thank-you equinox. I'm very sorry to hear what happened to you. I'm glad you're getting there. Link to comment
MadxMythMadame Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 It's been 2 months for me and it's better. It stings and still feels like there's some lingering hope for "us", but those are some dangerous thoughts right there. Things do get better After my relationship, I did things that made me happy - things that wouldn't make me feel guilty afterwards, such as going to a shooting range. Go with someone that will have fun with you. It's great for any frustrations. Doesn't have to be that, but something that's warm and comforting - a sense of support for yourself. Link to comment
equinox Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 Thank-you equinox. I'm very sorry to hear what happened to you. I'm glad you're getting there. Cheers mate. Ultimatly, your situiation will improve too. As the above poster says, get out and do some active stuff to keep your mind ticking over. Personally, I hit the weights at the gym hard and I've gained a few pounds in the last three months (not fat! ). Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 Thanks guys, I do these things honestly, I've just accepted now that I'm getting hit hard. I'll continue to love her and miss and treasure her and then hope that at some point it eases. Thanks again. Link to comment
garretp Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 I've woken this morning feeling very sad. It's Thursday once again, my day off, what was our day. This girl has really effected me, never before have I been So hurt, no matter what I am doing I see her face, she's smiling at me, she's telling me how special I am and how she wants a life with me. I miss her So much, day 39 nc now and still that terrible feeling of loss hits me, I feel so empty without her, us, I've truly lost my love, my world. Will I ever recover ? I don't know, for now the tears stream down my face. I love you ex, I wish you were mine x Damn do I know how you feel. We had our own day too....well actually It was the whole weekend but still. I know how hard it is to get to that day and then wake up and think "Yes! I get to see her today!" only to realize that they are gone. It really hurts. Sorry you feel so down, your not alone though, if you need someone to talk to I'm here for you. Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 Thanks Garret, I guess its hard for us all my friend hence us being here, its not fait that we have to give up the things we love most in the world I sometimes think that it was not meant to be but then i think of her and well, you know the rest. Hope youre ok fella Link to comment
equinox Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 This thread is starting to sound like a bunch of guys sharing tales of lost love over beers in some dingy kip of a bar late on friday evening Link to comment
Kev0s1983 Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 Hey Steve, I really admire your candidness and honesty. I believe that you wear your heart on your sleeve similarly to how I do although you seem to be able to better articulate your emotions. You have some great personality traits right there. Many women would admire that I reckon and I know you dont want any other women - just as I didnt and to an extent still dont... But Im nearly day 60 and slowly but surely it gets a little better. There are still days where you feel awful but slowly but surely the trend does go upwards. I think your doing a fine job of moving on by being open and honest, not hiding away or pretending anything. Keep going mate, lots of people gunning for you Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 Cheers Kev, Its good of you to say all of that mate, others may just have said dont be a wimp and man up, i cant do that, you would not believe that im 6'2, well built and ex military and police, soft as you like though sadly. Thanks again mate Oh and Equinox, if its starting to sound like that, Good, its what we are here for is it not ? bit of bonding never hurt anyone Link to comment
Kev0s1983 Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 Dude, Im 6'4 and have cried more times over the last couple of months than i have in my life! Just shows how much, how - INSANELY - much you/me/we all care(d)... (I aint well built tho run and swim pretty good but thats it!! hahaha Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 Glad I'm not the only 6 footer here Cheers fella. Link to comment
jonesyjakk Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 cry it out guys, never let anyone tell you you are weak for that...ever...on the contrary you are so much stronger!!!! it is not natural to supress emotion and that includes tears! when society learns this it will be to late for all the sheep! (no welsh jokes steve ha) jonesy Link to comment
Kev0s1983 Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 I grew up in Chepstow btw jonesy Bristol born but - cant all be perfect huh? Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 I really feel like texting her, tell me why that is not good? Please Link to comment
jonesyjakk Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 well while you are wondering and hoping and thinking just one text a massive skip weighing a million ton is falling from the sky, right about the moment you realise hell she isnt gonna text me back that skip is gonna land your head and CRUSH YOU! jonesy Link to comment
Kev0s1983 Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 Cos it wont solve anything and its a short term fix which will delay you healing. Text someone else what you would of text her - someone who knows the score. They will understand and hopefully give you some support Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 This is embarrassing, I'm sat in the middle of Brighton getting tearful. Thanks guys, I just miss my baby sooooo much Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 I've really had enough now Link to comment
jonesyjakk Posted April 21, 2011 Share Posted April 21, 2011 dont worry steve....hey man i cried for the first time in weeks yesterday and almost crashed my car as i was crying so hard, because i had just given back my son....you know in the place i used to work, and have to deal with customers and run a dept and deal with about 30 staff members constantly....when i first when through this i had tears in my eyes continuously, especially when nobody knew they would always ask whats up with ya eyes???? i dunno how i got through that but i never replied...."ive just had to run off the shop floor to hide in the mens toilet cubicles and sob quietly into my hands for 5 mins so the other men in there won't hear me"! keep going man....just let e flow....sc..re..w everyone else so what if they some bloke sobbing....i used to say man up all the time you mate...i will never say it again to anyone...i learnt a valuable lesson in my own healing that if you smile, a frown will follow, if your happy sadness will follow and if you cry relief will follow....and vice versa.... its good to cry....you will get to a strong point in yourself when you just think...I HAVE HAD ENOUGH....then it only really gets better from there but times will still be hard.....i thought man im done...im over my ex, almost 5 months now...then sunday set me back and ive been struggling since, i dunno what happened...just when i thought id reached the top of the mountain i realised theres an even bigger mountain to climb.....but ya know what ive done, tightened up my laces, took a long deep breath and carried on cos i and you alike will never be beaten ever!!!!!!! keep going bro!!!! jonesy! Link to comment
stevef20 Posted April 21, 2011 Author Share Posted April 21, 2011 Cheers jonesy, This all sucks bad, you're a good lad. Link to comment
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