Haven't been here i awhile...

[saku]

Tomorrow it will be two years since I last really contemplated suicide. Sometimes I wish I had the guts to have gone through with it. Things haven't gotten any better, and while I know my family has done much for me in my life, they are one of the biggest problems I have to deal with right now. I tried calling a crisis number a few moments ago, I guess mainly because that's all I have at the moment as far as convenient support, but it felt awkward talking to the other person.

 

I can't sleep either; the little sleep I do get, I end up waking up in a cold sweat. I just really want this pain to stop.

 

Sorry for writing so much.

[PonytailFairy]

If it easier for you to write in ena than talk to phone, maybe you could tell what things causes your pain.