Just when i thought i was moving on..

[StillHopeful88]

havent spoken to him in a while.. been broken up for about 2 months now.. thought i was moving on. I was so content with the thought that i needed him out of my life and that he wasnt good for me.

 

Started talking to a new guy.. he was actually an old friend that i always had a thing for. Long story short i was crushing over him like crazy and totally forgetting about my ex. I thought of this new guy every night, couldnt wait until we finally moved accross the friend zone. We went on a date tonight and we finally kissed for the first time and do you know what i felt? After days of wondering what it would be like to kiss another guys after 2 years of only havig my ex's lips on mine... after all the butterflies i felt around this new guy and all the times i day dreamed about us having our first kis... i felt like complete and utter crap.

 

All i thought of when i got home was how my exs kisses made me feel..how his touch, his smell, his body, his hugs and his whole entire presence made me feel inside.

I feel like calling him, i feel like crying, i cant believe how this is making me feel right now and im aware my sentences are horribly structured right now im sorry.

[ImGrowing]

Maybe you're not ready? or maybe he's just not the right guy. I kissed a few guys before my ex, and I felt like crap. So, I'm not expecting to feel those butterflies again with the next guy. It might take a while, or maybe just the right guy to make me feel that way again. Don't be too hard on yourself

[AmyWebber]

A wise ass once told me I need to date a bunch of dudes and break their hearts and fix mine with the pieces they leave behind. Its terrible...but...who knows try it out.