Angry Morning Drive

[mines]

....Driving to work this morning, first day since the break-up that I have listened to music.

 

Of all things - some random Pearl Jam that I bought 8 years ago and never listened to. I have NO emotional connection with this music, nothing in it that reminds me of him, that's the only way I could do it.

 

Loud, loudest I've ever put my stereo up - not caring that the surrounding cars could hear my music, the loud thumping bass.....sunglasses on - looking only at the road not seeing anything.....

 

Blind with rage and screaming at God/god, the universe, the timing.

 

I was happy this time, finally. I was SO happy and so [sWEAR WORD] content.

This hurts too bad and I don't think I can do it - I am NOT strong enough.

[SapphireNoir10]

You have to do it. You have to survive. It sucks, Im where you are and my goodness it hurts.

[brock]

I'm a guy... Us guys feel the pain too.

 

When I'm in my car all I can listen to is Howard Stern.

 

I can't listen to music either.

 

Feel the pain...

 

Cry...

 

Get angry...

 

Scream and shake the wheel and say "F U!" "F U for thinking that I'm not good enough for you dude!"

 

You are good enough!!!

 

He'll never find another girl like you. Never!

[dancingcolors]

I've driven in the country screaming on the top of my lungs over my breakup. It really does hurt. Worse than giving birth maybe, that ends. And a broken leg. It is a really painful experience.

[mines]

...Thanks everyone, for reading, for responding. At least I know someone on this godforsaken planet understands how I am feeling. I wish all of you good things and no more pain.....

[Rally]

Haha I know how all of you feel, I yell at the top of my lungs in my car randomly sometimes and start shouting f*** you.

 

Sometimes this incredible surge of anger bursts from within us. *sigh . We will get through it..

[CloudedSoul]

...I did the same this morning. ehhh I hate feeling this way.

[miss bear]

I have screamed so many times in my car I have lost count.

Sometimes when I am really angry, I go out to this area near my home, a cliff by the beach and I scream and scream and swear, and just let the anger take over for a little while.

[lia86]

D*mn y'all... I am going through the same thing, but have NEVER found anywhere to scream out loud... not even my car...

 

Mines, hang in there. That was me for the first 2.5 months. The second half of the third month is better.

[mines]

Thanks for the kind words lia86....