like buses hey? two along at the same time..

[Leon91]

right.. a new update to whats been going on..

 

most importantly - solicitors:

 

after a quick meeting with a stand in solicitor as my usual was busy

i left feeling furious that she just brushed it aside!

 

" i havent heard a word in two weeks nearly, from her or the social or anybody! "

 

" ah.. well theese things happen im sure they will soon! ill ask them to arrange contact, and if they agree brilliant! but if not, then we have to start court..maybe ask for two hours a week! ill let you know what is said, ill send a letter today to T and the social "

 

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what the hell is wrong with this women? im fighting for my child and she cant be botherd!

 

anyway, i called the social MYSELF in the end, and asked what was happening.

 

" well mike is your social worker, and the meeting is canceled! "

 

" right, what, why? that meeting is to discuss access!"

 

" well, as she has moved back home we are stepping down and handing it over the that areas team.. sorry, could be a while before we know anything if at all. "

 

 

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i was ready to kill at this point -

 

not only have they not botherd keeping me updated! but they forget to even tell me that my meeting is canceled!?! are they for real??

good lord, if i canceled on THEM, i have police here and smashing my front door down to find out why i canceld , as im merely a human and not allowed to cancel a social worker, god forbid!

( this actualy happened, TWICE! - one that i didnt even know they were coming?!? )

 

i called my solicitor to tell her the update - this time i spoke to my usual one!

 

she is a different solicitor all together!

as soon as i mentioned all this she was fuming and said right on the 12th we have court and we will demand access as no genuine reason has been given they cant just controll your access on a whim and then disappear!

you have rights that have not been void - and would never be, there is no grounds for it!

you will have access, make no mistake.. its the law!

ill see you asap, keep me updated ill be sending letters to all parties demanding access and reasons for the non contact and unproffesional working standards!

 

THIS IS MORE LIKE IT - i need someone who is gonna get my access not relax!

 

 

anyway we found out that my ex and her family have changed EVERY NUMBER!

 

all mobiles and landlines, changed!

- this is unbelievable, im not going away anytime soon so grow up people!

 

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in the night i met up with old friends in my hometown and ended up on a bender, blew alot of money and a lot of beer!

ended up all staying at a friends, whos cousin is my ex ex ex...

me and her get along always have..and she came yesterday!

she stayed aswell..

 

her cousin and another friends were talking how we suit..

and although seeming childish, said to us that we should go again at a relationship.. shes compatible. 1000%

but she is really popular and very independent.. and that puts me off ??

we were only together a few months and we were only 12/13!

but now were both adults and both mature.. and im not sure where to take it

she says she wants to settle down now with someone serious..

so do i. but im scared to trust, especially her as shes very outgoing and very popular! too popular and trusts anyone!

 

so thats another option.. my ex ex ex... or you have my other ex ex ex!

 

shes beautiful shes happy shes amazing.. apart from:

shes mature but not as much as me or other people are...

shes not highly educated either - although she is smart and funny and talks well with me..

she was the type who didnt care, drank instead of being in lessons, smoked weed and stuff - never liked this type of girl. always seen them as a liability.

but in honesty we get along.. really really well

but im not sure she could really settle down...

 

 

i dont know what to do.. i cant believe i have a choice!!

but they both have pros cons.. like anyone would have.. but im not sure whats my best option.. i want:

 

to settle, to know that my GF isnt out drunk,trusting people she shouldnt

and both are that type!

 

i want to travel, do new things and share things..

i want to be able to have a night in just the pair of us..

that sort of thing compared to loads of friends and not bothering as a couple!

 

 

.... im not sure what to do..

but its time to move on from T... shes deff not coming back, she would have by now, and its her problem now so sod it!