ScreenagerX Posted May 31, 2010 Share Posted May 31, 2010 Been along time since I've been round these ways, my Ex used to read my posts & then confront me about them so I backed off. She lives in Australia now so who cares. I have been with my Ex off & on for the last 4 years. Around July last year she came back & I surprised her with a ring, got engaged, bought a house together & got a dog. I thought I was on track for "happily ever after". But she always had an element of mistrust with me so it didn't last. April this year we broke up & she moved to Oz to start over. She left me here in "our" house, with "our" dog surrounded by "our" stuff to carry on with my life. I grieved. I got angry, now I'm getting over it. I admit I still have moments of sadness where I miss her like crazy and then other times where I'm so angry at her for saying yes & then running away like she always does with things get too hard.......... I'm not sure what to do now though. I have a house that reminds me of her everyday, I am barely staying afloat with repayments/insurance etc. I love my dog but I just don't have enough time for her anymore. I have no concentration for work. I've decided I need to quit smoking, today is day 2 & although its not that bad & I know I should quit, I feel like I'm wasting my time. Sometimes I wish I wasn't here. I'm bored with everything. There doesn't seem much point to anything at all. I kind of had direction before when I was with her, in that we were going to grow old together, maybe have kids, travel. Thats all gone now. I'm not sure that its all related to the break up though. She gets to go & travel the world, make new friends, see new sights, experience new things. And I'm stuck here in the same town, doing the same job, in the same house with the same friends..........perhaps thats why she hated this town so much? But I can't leave. I've always wanted a house so I could have a dog. Plus my daughter to my previous marriage lives in this town aswell so I don't want to stray to far from her Link to comment
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