Atticus90 Posted May 27, 2010 Share Posted May 27, 2010 Well, today i got my closure. I was allowed to go to her house to talk and see my little boy. We talked and I appoligized for the threat I made to her. Told her I have a slight anger problem. Although unexcusable, she understood where I was coming from. We sorta made up in a way. We're not back together, but it felt nice seeing her face and being able to talk about this instead of over the phone. My son will be 2 next month, and watch this. If I ever needed a reason to believe he loved me, this would be it. He walked out to my car and got in my carseat and tried to strap himself in. All by himself. We used to never be able to get him in there. It literally made my heart melt... I missed him so much. She's not going to keep him away from me, from what she told me so that's good! We're still not together though. I told her I wanted to take a while of No contact. I told her I keep my phone on, but to only contact me if my son's hurt or anything that has to do with him. Other than that, no contact. She cried a lot while I was there, so of course I started crying. Then my boy started crying.. It was really emotional day for all of us. Almost felt like we were a family again. I made a promiss to her I wouldn't move on to quick and that it'd be a longgg time til I ever decide to date again. Regardless of that, I still wouldn't date. Gotta take my time to heal. She promissed the same, but no offense to her, those promisses can only last so long... No matter how much she cried, she still wouldn't be together with me. It really upset me, but I want her happy, so I wasn't gonna bug her about it. Now to my question. Is it really possible to love someone like I loved her again? I understand it probably wouldn't be the "same" love, but still. My heart is still crushed and I just want a little hope that I can share my heart with someone else in the future. Thank you for reading and thanks for all the advice in my threads1 happy birthday to me Link to comment
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