metrogirl Posted May 25, 2010 Share Posted May 25, 2010 You did good Insane. You went another 5 days which is fabulous and yes, you did slip up but you recognized it early and like you said, you didn't enjoy it like you normally do. That's progress my friend. Let me throw something out there. My bf is an alcoholic and his drink of choice for some time has been beer. Now that he is battling some medical conditions that don't allow for a whole lot of drinking, he's taken to having some O'douls which is alcohol free beer. He said that just having something with the taste of beer helps to curb the urges for the real thing. Maybe that would help a little. Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted May 25, 2010 Author Share Posted May 25, 2010 Thanks for the suggestion Metro. If the urge gets bad again, I may try that. I haven't had a drink in 4 days now, and I'm feeling really good. I'm thinking about all the plans I have for the summer (it feels like it here already!). My anxiety is getting less, and I'm starting to feel more at peace. Link to comment
Celestialagape54 Posted May 26, 2010 Share Posted May 26, 2010 ^^ Insane I am so happy for you! Metro you rock awesome suggestion Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted May 26, 2010 Author Share Posted May 26, 2010 Things are still going well. I don't feel like a drunkard anymore Link to comment
metrogirl Posted May 26, 2010 Share Posted May 26, 2010 Things are still going well. I don't feel like a drunkard anymore That's wonderful! So are you feeling less anxious as the days pass? How is the sleeping coming along? Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted May 26, 2010 Author Share Posted May 26, 2010 That's wonderful! So are you feeling less anxious as the days pass? How is the sleeping coming along? Sleep is coming easier. Sunday night wasn't good, but the last two days have been better. My anxiety is less too. I think it's because I'm making a conscious effort to release it when I can. Link to comment
metrogirl Posted May 26, 2010 Share Posted May 26, 2010 Sleep is coming easier. Sunday night wasn't good, but the last two days have been better. My anxiety is less too. I think it's because I'm making a conscious effort to release it when I can. Ok another question for ya. Have you ever dabbled in meditation? It's a great stress reliever. Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted May 26, 2010 Author Share Posted May 26, 2010 Ok another question for ya. Have you ever dabbled in meditation? It's a great stress reliever. It's funny you should mention that! I've actually started reading Full Catastrophe Living by Jon Kabat-Zinn. It's very interesting, and I think meditation will really help with my anxiety. I just want to understand it before I commit myself to doing it. Link to comment
Celestialagape54 Posted May 26, 2010 Share Posted May 26, 2010 Insane, I am so happy for you and the fact that you are feeling much better. Nothing like a positive attitude towards handling an issue Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted May 27, 2010 Author Share Posted May 27, 2010 Things are still getting better. My hubs called me this morning and told me that he wants to take our daughter to DC at the end of the summer. I'm so excited! It's well enough in advance that we should have no problem saving up for it, and I've never been there. Definitely something to look forward to! Link to comment
metrogirl Posted May 27, 2010 Share Posted May 27, 2010 Things are still getting better. My hubs called me this morning and told me that he wants to take our daughter to DC at the end of the summer. I'm so excited! It's well enough in advance that we should have no problem saving up for it, and I've never been there. Definitely something to look forward to! Vacations and get aways are a great way to reduce stress and anxiety. Maybe you just need a little break from the norm. Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted May 27, 2010 Author Share Posted May 27, 2010 I think you might be right. Things are really looking up, and I feel like I have more to look forward now in a general sense than I ever have before. It's a good feeling. Link to comment
Celestialagape54 Posted May 27, 2010 Share Posted May 27, 2010 Insane, I must commend you for your positive attitude, you are doing so great. A vacation sounds like a great idea, and I am sure it will be good for you. See you know you can do this and we are here to support you. Link to comment
Celestialagape54 Posted May 29, 2010 Share Posted May 29, 2010 Insane, I hope you have a great weekend! Sending you lost of positive vibes Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted June 3, 2010 Author Share Posted June 3, 2010 I haven't posted on here in a bit. I've been backsliding. I haven't completely fallen off the wagon, but I haven't been perfect either. I just got some news that put a scare in me though. My uncle, an alcoholic all his life, is fighting for his very life right now. His liver is shutting down. He's only 44. This man means so much to me, and has always been there for me. After my father abandoned me, he was my only father figure. He's always been loving, in his own way, and has always made me feel special. Unfortunately, the man always has a beer in his hand, and over the past couple of years he has switched to hard liquor. You could often find him with a screwdriver at 7am. I shouldn't be suprised that this is happening, but I always hoped that he would get better. He never thought he had a problem. I guess I am one-step further than him. Link to comment
metrogirl Posted June 3, 2010 Share Posted June 3, 2010 I'm really sorry to hear that Insane. I can imagine you are a mixed bag of emotions. Now is not the time to come undone. You need to be in a clear mind to enjoy whatever time you may have left with your uncle. Also, this might be a good place to start over again, start fresh. You see first hand what the drink has done to a loved one, don't let that happen to you hon. You have your family that loves you and I am sure they want all the extra time they can get with you. Take care of yourself. We are here for you. Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted June 3, 2010 Author Share Posted June 3, 2010 Thanks Metro. I definitely don't want to end up like him. I love him to pieces, and it's not fair that he is so far gone. He's only 44. I can't wrap my mind around that. I can't let this happen to myself. I won't. Link to comment
metrogirl Posted June 3, 2010 Share Posted June 3, 2010 Thanks Metro. I definitely don't want to end up like him. I love him to pieces, and it's not fair that he is so far gone. He's only 44. I can't wrap my mind around that. I can't let this happen to myself. I won't. One day at a time...... Were you able to make it to any of the AA classes that you were interested in? I'm willing to be you will find people there that are in similar situations and I think you would benefit from the added support. Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted June 3, 2010 Author Share Posted June 3, 2010 One day at a time...... Were you able to make it to any of the AA classes that you were interested in? I'm willing to be you will find people there that are in similar situations and I think you would benefit from the added support. I haven't gone yet, there's always something going on. I will have to buckle down and just go. If for no other reason then to be with people who have gone what I'm going through. Link to comment
metrogirl Posted June 3, 2010 Share Posted June 3, 2010 I haven't gone yet, there's always something going on. I will have to buckle down and just go. If for no other reason then to be with people who have gone what I'm going through. I understand completely. It seems when we need to do something, there are 100 other things that come about at the same time. I hope you find the right balance. Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted June 4, 2010 Author Share Posted June 4, 2010 I updated my thread on my uncle, but thought I would here too. He's not doing so well. He is in detox right now, and it's all touch and go. IF he makes it through the detox, he will still not be out of the woods. The doctor says that the best possible outcome is that he may live up to another two years. The worst case scenario is that he won't live through the next couple days. Link to comment
metrogirl Posted June 4, 2010 Share Posted June 4, 2010 I updated my thread on my uncle, but thought I would here too. He's not doing so well. He is in detox right now, and it's all touch and go. IF he makes it through the detox, he will still not be out of the woods. The doctor says that the best possible outcome is that he may live up to another two years. The worst case scenario is that he won't live through the next couple days. I'm sorry Insane. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted June 4, 2010 Author Share Posted June 4, 2010 I'm sorry Insane. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you Metro, it means a lot. Link to comment
Celestialagape54 Posted June 4, 2010 Share Posted June 4, 2010 I updated my thread on my uncle, but thought I would here too. He's not doing so well. He is in detox right now, and it's all touch and go. IF he makes it through the detox, he will still not be out of the woods. The doctor says that the best possible outcome is that he may live up to another two years. The worst case scenario is that he won't live through the next couple days. Insane, I am so sorry for what is going on with your uncle I hope that everything works for the best, I am a firm believer that God has a purpose for everything. You and your uncle are in my prayers, I know loss is a natural part of life but it is a pain I do not want for anyone. If you need anything I am here! Thank you for the update I hope you are doing well with all the stress going on. Stay strong. Link to comment
Sanesoul Posted June 4, 2010 Author Share Posted June 4, 2010 Thanks lunar. I am so exhausted sitting here that I can barely function. I keep telling myself that I am doing ok handling all this, but my body says differently. It's funny how that works. Link to comment
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