I hardly have posted on here tbh since I took up the challenge. It was going to be two months on Saturday since I initiated no contact. Well, my ex called me last night. I saw her older brother and we talked. It was good. But my ex then called later asking about so called friends of ours who have been sh*t stirring. Basically told her I didn't talk to them anymore, which is true. I told her how I feel and she reiterated how she doesn't feel the same and I deserve somebody better than her. Even her brother has said, that isn't the girl we know. Whatever is happening in her head, she needs to sort out.
Where did this call put me? Right back at square one. All the emotions came flooding back. To top it off we were getting married this month. So it was going to be a struggle anyway. But know it feels so much worse.
So anyway- day 1 of NC!