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  1. figmentations
    I'm kinda sad today. I put so much into this relationship and you didn't even face me. What happened? I just want to forget you.
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    Day 4? I can't remember, honestly. I know it's been 10 weeks since we broke up and had been a little over 2 months since my last NC. I'm getting to that phase that I can't even remember dates or keep track of them Anyway, I feel good! My ex never replied to my text, just as expected and I really think she won't for a very long time, if ever. But that's okay. It's over and I'm slowly severing any emotional ties I had to her. Sometimes I think it'd be better if I never hear from her again.
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    Thanks. Marshmallito, I think you need to stick to NC for awhile longer. I did 2 months of it before breaking and I'm back in the game
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    Day 1 Well, I broke NC yesterday after 2 months of it to text my ex. She didn't reply just as I anticipated but I'm feeling okay and more liberated than ever. I know it's truly over and she's part of my past and I need to move on.
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    Believe me, after 30 days you will feel better. You're almost there! After 1 month of NC, I felt better. I still have my off days but they're more nostalgic and melancholic than outright sadness. I feel much more in control of my life than ever. I wish you all the best.
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    64 days I'm getting to that stage where I have to calculate exactly how many days have passed. It's weird. I used to write here every day but after 2 months, I don't have the same need for it. I guess I just want to show that it is possible to reach 60 days of NC. I'm happier than I was a month ago, still have a long way to go but I know I'm on the right track.
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    62 days/ 2 months of NC I read the posts here and it makes me sad to see so many of you struggling. It's been 2 months exactly today since my BU and NC and it does get better. Am I 100% healed and moved on? Nope. But I found the means to think of other things, do stuff, reflect on my former relationship and ex and things that weren't good between us. I look forward to love again and to celebrate my two months of being a single lady, I'm going out for drinks with my friends. It really does get better, I still have a long way to go and things to fix but I am confident I will be okay and I know all of you struggling right now will also be okay. I was there, too. The first month is the crappiest but you will be fine.
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    Day 56 (8 weeks) I didn't remember how many days had passed so I had to count backwards so maybe my counting is off. I'm actually have more problems and dramas with my friends which is kinda welcome from suffering about my ex. I feel crappy but not because of ex but because of the friends situation and people giving their opinion all the time.
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    This was me so many times after the BU happened. I hope you're ok.
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    Day 52 Yesterday I felt pretty good, listening to sad breakup songs and not even shedding a tear. But today I went over to check her FB and there's nothing to see since we're not friends anymore. Still. I feel kinda sad today, despite that I was in high spirits this morning. I wish she'd get out of my heart and mind. I'm still waiting for her to talk to me.
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    Wow, you are really stubborn.
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    49 Days or 7 weeks Well, today would have been our 1 year anniversary. Today hasn't been so hard. I went to work in the morning, later class and now I'm at home. I think I'll work out a bit and distract myself with other things until night when I'm gonna go see some friends for dinner. I can't say I'm 100% feeling good, I'm actually sad and dying a bit inside that she's never contacted me in these 49 days. I wonder if she thinks or even remembers today was our anniversary. I wish I had never met her sometimes.
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    Day 43 Jeez. Sounds like a lot, sometimes feels like it, and sometimes it doesn't. All I know is that this week I was terribly sad and depressed and down about my life since I kept on blaming myself for things having failed. But I've realized I need someone who accepts me for who and what I am. And that I'm accepting that things have come to end and while it makes me terribly sad, there's nothing I can do. My ex hasn't spoken to me at all during these 43 days.
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    I wish you still cared about me. Every day my stupid illusions that we'll be together again get fainter and fainter and so do the ones that we'll ever talk. This is truly the end. I still love you.
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    Day 40 I think I'm moving into acceptance phase that she's not coming back or will contact me in any shape or form. I'm depressed and it sucks since for so long, I had that glimmer of hope since I loved her but I can't do this forever. I need to live my life and I deserve better than what she offered.
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    Thanks! I did this all on the first day of our break up. I still sometimes hope for a reconciliation but it's not up to me.
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    I deleted all our pictures and just saved a few inside the folder of a folder so I won't see them. Most of the cards she gave me I burned on the stove lol.
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    Day 38 Starting to lose focus on my ex, I hope. I need to work on myself. It's hard not having my ex around but time and distance has made it hurt less, although these past two days have been hard. I hope it all goes away.
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    Day 37 Only last night did I really figure out one of the reasons why my ex broke up with me. I stopped feeling like a victim and instead more like someone who played an active part in the separation. Now I'm mostly full of regrets.
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    Day 35 Still sick but no longer thinking obsessively about my ex. Not as mad or hurt that she hasn't talked to me at all during these 35 days. It bugs me but not as much as before. I've been hanging out a lot with friends, small reunions and the such and everyone tells me not to get back if she tries. It's all pretty confusing.
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    I miss you a lot today. I wonder what you're up to. It's a rainy, cloudy day and it's Friday. I wish you'd get out of my head. Or talk to me.
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    Day 33 I cried over her today. I'm also sick and feel like crap in general so I'll attribute it to that. Feeling very angry toward her for not breaking NC, for not fighting for us, for just ignoring me.
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    Do you miss me? I'm more curious than anything.
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    Day 32 I dreamed about my ex last night, that she was rejecting me again. I woke up feeling super bummed out but once I got out of bed and thought of having a nice simple breakfast of tea and cookies, my spirits lifted immediately and then turned to things I had to do today and then looking forward to watching an episode of a TV show I like. I was surprised, really. I thought I'd be sad for hours, anguishing and having one of those days but I felt fine all day and I'm helping a friend cope with her recent BU as well.
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