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Day 2. I woke up thinking about her. God... Why did she have to hurt me like this?

My ex did the same thing! Strung me along, toyed with my heart for a full month. Then, out of nowhere she tells me she's found someone else. How can people do this to us??? People we thought we knew, people who we thought "loved" us. It still makes me sick to the gut just thinking of myself being treated like a 2nd rate toy.

I know how you feel, Blondie176. My ex did the same thing to me too. Told me about her new beau slightly more than a month ago, and now they're happily riding off into the sunset. Even 'forgot' my birthday. My heart's being torn out and shattered into pieces every single day for the past 2 months. The pain is still so intense. Sometimes, I just want to end it all, but I realize that I have to love myself more than I love her. Only then will I find peace. You're doing well, keeping yourself occupied. Keep it up!

Argh! I replied her! I just said, "I'm not". I broke NC, AGAIN. gosh... I feel so crappy right now. Back to day 1.

It's day 5 now. Feeling a little better. There's hope for the future.

The last time I talked to her mum was the last time I talked to her. 4 days ago. Hm... Her mum likes to pry into her life. Well, her whole family is concerned for her. They don't like this guy. Neither do I, but what can we do? It's her choice. Her life. If she wants to throw away a good future with me for some "emotional predator" who doesnt whom she met at a club, it's still her choice. I'm just trying to move on with my own life now, but peeking over my shoulder at times to "check up" on her. I still love her. But doing NOTHING, I guess, is the best thing I can do now.

God. The ex just sent me a text. She asked me to stop entertaining her mother's questions because she is a "nosey f***". I'm not replying her. Just some background: her mum has been asking me to fight for her, because she doesn't like the new guy. Is not the replying her the right thing to do?

Do anything! You're your own person now, and you have the license to do whatever you want. online resources are aplenty, so I suggest you head there first. Slowly, we'll get there. Have faith, and hope.

I am going to the library, picking up and reading Italian dictionaries, listening to audio books, watching online videos too. As for learning how to play the guitar, well, all you need is a guitar, and a friend who knows how to play the guitar. It will take time to learn how to play the guitar. I hear it takes at least 6 months to learn all the chords! The main thing is to keep your mind off your ex, and be the best you can be. I'm "increasing my value" as a person, so to speak. They'll regret leaving you, in the future.

Day 4 of NC, after 4 weeks of LC of failed attempts at trying to go out with her as a "friend", apologizing to her and trying to convince her to come back. I feel a little better today. I'm taking up new skills e.g. Learning how to play the guitar, learning a new language(Italian). It helps take your mind off things.

What does it mean if they're with someone else but don't send you so much as a happy birthday text? How could someone I've shared my heart with for 3 years be so.. Heartless.

I'd say don't. Resist the temptation, friend.

Day 3. This is after 4 weeks of LC. I would be a month through with NC if not for her mum. She keeps asking to me fight for her daughter. She did not understand that someone emotionally unstable can't fight for someone who already has her heart set on another guy. Now, it's NC all the way.

What if I pushed her away too much after the break up? I was having my examinations and I wanted to focus on my papers first, then reconcile with her after all my papers have ended. However, she kept dropping me bread crumbs along the way, while I was having my papers, by texting me that she missed me and all. By then I had already blocked her on Facebook and even blocked her calls. I replied her texts, saying I missed her too and what-have-yous. She wanted to meet up a few times for dinner but I couldn't, cause I was busy focusing on my papers. Little did I know that she was dating other people and after a month, she got into a relationship with a guy she met in the club, a day after my last paper. I did the usual, begging, pleading, but nothing fazed her. She said I didn't fight for her. And she said that whatever I have done in the past, she can never trust me again. I have to admit, I am not completely innocent. I flirted with a few girls behind her back, I stole glances at them when she was around, communication was bad, leading to even worse arguments. She moved in with this new guy barely a week after they got together. I can see that they're happy together, and it's been a month since they first became official. I feel great sense of loss, and I want her to be part of my life again. She said she wanted me to be her friend, but I told her that it was not possible, for we had spent 3 special years together. Ive tried "LC" for the whole of June, asking her if she wanted to stay as friends and hang out, and at the last second, chickening out. God, I feel so childish and immature. Right now, I don't know what I should do. The last time I contacted her was 2 days ago. She's having the time of her life. I am not. I was distant from her when I was doing my revision, and I think that gave her the opportunity to meet other guys who would shower her with comfort and appreciation when she was emotionally at an all time low. Is NC the way to go? Or am I just digging myself a deeper hole?

I have a question. What if you and your ex had so many fights throughout your 3 year relationship that she just gave up toward the end and said that she didn't love you anymore. We ended things mutually, which was for the best at that moment as I was preparing for my examinations. Throughout that time when we were apart, she maintained contact with me every few weeks, saying that she missed me and all, and I replied her that I felt the same way. I even asked her a few times if we could work things out and she said it was not possible. This made me mad, and i blocked her number from being able to call me, and i blocked her off Facebook. The thing is, after my last paper, which was about 1 1/2 months after the break up, she got into a relationship with this guy she met a month before in a club. I was obviously enraged and asked her why she led me on the whole time I was having my papers. She just said that she didn't want to lose me as a friend. This is when I cracked. I called her and begged her to give me another chance. She didn't budge. In the end, I told her how much I loved her, and I told her I would change. She said people don't change that fast. I asked her to give me one last chance, and even told her I would wait for her. God, I feel so sorry for myself for groveling at her "feet". So, by the advice of my friends, I tried NC at first. The thing is that throughout those 3 years, most of the time, we were happy. We were very much in love with each other. It's many small, stupid, things that led to the break up. to list them all, I would have to start a new thread, and ask you guys how it is that I can improve myself. She told me to give her sometime, one day. A few days later, she told me not to wait for her. Barely a month into her new relationship and she's already moved in with this new guy. I hear that she's having a blast and keeps posting lovey dovey stuff about their activities on Facebook. I tried LC at first, telling her that I would be here for her, and that I still love her and that maybe in the future, we could work things out. But I told her too that right now, it would be best for the both of us to spend time apart. She's had a rough childhood. Her mum was abusive towards her because her dad was never around to provide them with the emotional support. I feel like she needs someone who cares about her in life, and thats where I come in. I care and love her so much. I am just afraid that whatever I have done during the 2nd half of our relationship is still on her mind, and that reconciliation is out of the question. The first few days after I got to know that she was in a relationship with this guy, she texted me and told me that everything was gonna be fine for me, that I would find someone better who would appreciate me for who I am. The thing is that, this guy who she is with, she said that he stuck with her throughout the time that she was still distraught over the breakup, that he was there for her. I told her that he obviously had other intentions in mind, but she wouldn't listen. God, it hurts to bad. To think that I wanted to propose to her after I was done with school in 2 year, thinking that we would've a solid relationship... I lost my virginity to her. And I made her pregnant once. By accident. I just want her back in my life, but everyone around me says I deserve better. I've gone 5 days NC now, after 2-3 weeks of LC. What should I do? I'm trying to be my own man, be the person who can stand on his 2 feet, that guy who was confident and smart and attractive. I've been going to the gym, running my a** off, hanging out with friends. I'm even going on a date this Thursday...but everytime I take part in these activities, my mind just goes back to her, and how I messed things up. I wish to set things right again. Any advice, anyone? There are some parts of my story that I think I left out, which might be important, but this is basically the gist of it. Should I continue to hope? I told her I'd wait for her.