Well where do I start? From the beginning I guess.
In 1999 a lady I met from the USA came to England for 2 years to live etc.
We started out as friends and whilst she was here, there were many times we discussed our "relationship", i.e. are we friends or something more special. Anyway, we were intimate on many occasions, and there isnt anything I wouldnt have done for her. I wasn't in love with her...at least I didnt think so, until she moved back to the USA in Nov 2001.
Ever since she returned home, I havent been the same. I tried to remain friends with her, but found this difficult. I am filled with deep resentment and anger as to why I was never allowed to having a loving relationship, as I often wondered if I was a good "friend" more than a boyfriend. She often felt the same way too...very confused.
I haven't dated anyone since, as I feel somewhat cheated. She has been dating someone for over a year now, and it seems to be serious.
I often feel like writing her a letter to explain how disappointed I am.
It just seems all too late now, but maybe this is the closure I need.
I invested so much in this relationship, that I feel she must know she too advantage of my good nature.
As a result of this, I am very mis-trusting of women now, as I feel there is an ulterior motive.
Any advice from a female perspective would be appreciated.
