I've been with my fiance for almost 4 years now. Her drinking first started to become a problem with me about a year into the relationship. She blames the majority of her problems on either me or her Depression which emotionaly destroy's me and leaves me alone and consumming massive amounts of antacids. I realize I have no control over what she does or her drinking and can only sit aside and watch her destroy herself. She has attempted suicide a few times with me present. In 2 instances she has pulled a knife on herself vowing to run herself through... My reaction on both instances were of me disarming the knife from her. Nobody has gotten hurt seriously but I believe it's just a matter of time before it happens again as long as she continues drinking. If I leave her I know that she will indulge her sorrows and almost definitely attempt to kill herself again without anyone to stop her.
So here I sit. I absolutley love the woman but the relationship is tearing my life to ribbons. She's extremly caustic when she's drinking and basically pummels me verbaly with my own mistakes. (Working too much, missing on household chores, etc.)
WHAT DO I DO?