Hi...
this is long, sorry im just in alot of pain.
On Sunday my boyfriend and i split up. It was his choice as he told me i deserve better and he wasnt giving me enough. Thing is , he is all i want and makes me 100% happy. This all stems from me doing so much for him and him feeling guilty as he cant give me the same back..i think he is insecure.
I begged, pleaded and sobbed but all it done was make him annoyed and frustrated. He says he still loves me but its for my own good as he isnt good enough for me. I tried to talk to him on monday night at his house but he just wondered about trying to distract himself..i wasnt making it easy as i was crying etc. He said he would stil love to be friends as i am his number one, the only girl he loves and he will always be there for me. He seemed so genuine.
I want him back so much...I sent him a message to his mobile in the middle of the night and he called me right back to check i was ok, but he still wont think about things.
He says he hasnt had time to think at all.
tuesday, he called to make sure i was up for work at 7 am, called at tea time to see how i was (this time i was chatty, breezy and i didnt cry or make my voice sound pathetic and i never mentioned out break-up). then again last night at 11.30pm he called again as he was walking home from a football match..this time we spoke breifly again (stil not crying).
I really want him back and i keep hoping he will change his mind..i wish i could run to him and tell him how i feel. we saw each other everyday for the past year and i know we were good together. Hardly any arguments or anything.
Is there hope? or were the calls just guilt making him check on me as he cares?What if he misses me but lets his pride stop him?
any advice from anyone been there and won them back?
I never called him last night nor did he call me...the longer this goes on the worse i get. I feel like its not over yet, but what else is it...Lets face it he couldnt be anymore clear. but it was all done in such a quick conversation?