Aporia

Thanks sooo much for all the replys! It made me feel so much better I didnt think writing all that up would help but it did. Thanks for the help too I do feel better. He was 6 years older than me. I kept saying to him you probably have said all this to so many girls before and now I know he has... I suppose in a way I'd like to thank him for showing me how fake people can be...but I've seen many fake guys before wanting just one thing...and he was just different... It actually really scary how convincing someone can be.... Im scared that this has affected me so much Im going to find it really hard to trust guys in the future

A month ago I met this guy in a club. (as you do) (my first time ever out in a pub/club thanks to my friends ID) We were talking for ages and we got on great... So he rang me the next day we talked for hours and then texted each other for the rest of the day so I met up with him the next day and we watched a movie in his house for our "first date" as he liked to call it then I met up with him a few more times just driving around the place so I ended up staying the night he kept trying to have sex with me but I told him I was a virgin and he completley understood and said that I should wait until I'm ready and stuff so we just stayed up all night in his room talking until about 11 o' clock the next day! After another week of having a great time with him and our in dept conversations where he told me about his childhood the good and bad things I stayed the night again and just decided that it was time to loose my virginity which I found very hard to do. I've had allot of boyfriends in the past but I could never do it. So I just let go. The next morning we got on great again and he gave me a lift home. I never saw him after that and he just ignored my texts. Im so low at the moment.... He took something away from me that someone might have appriciated in the future... It makes me sick and I feel so empty like Im not special anymore. I' ve gotten so depressed in the last few days that I couldnt get up for college. I just wake up everymorning about 7 o' clock and lie there. Ive no motivation and the thing that makes me sick the most is that I'll always look back apon this. How could he be so heartless? After saying stuff like you should wait until you meet the right person and I respect you for being one ect. Im so depresed I cant think straight and I cant go to college or even study for exams..... Please help......I feel so sad so low worthless

Well I got a reply to a really long message I sent him "yeah I feel the same" So I got really pissed off and acted like I never sent the message in the first place. So then a week passed and I still hadnt actually met up with him (at one stage I didnt see him for 3 weeks) So I sent him another message saying "Are we even still together" and he replied "its your call" So we broke up. I liked him too much and he obviously didnt really like me. I feel so much better admiting this. But im still not over him...were still friends though but Im not sure if thats good for me... Should I still be friends with him even though I still have strong feelings for him??

Well I'd like a guy who could make me laugh but at the same time know when to be serious. But a good alternative to being funny would be someone thats intresting. I suppose it works both ways really.

Hey thanks for that it was very helpful advise. I sent him the message I just have to wait for a reply....I still didnt actually see him since I started this topic...I feel a bit better now though about the whole situation.

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Hey thanks for the reply. Im 18. Its not a case of "I only want what I cant have" its more "The more I get the know him the more I like him" It might be the case for him though.... I m holding onto the fact that every time I think about him I smile...I was very depressed a few months ago and since I met him Im happier...Im studying better in college...getting better results...Its sad I know but I can deal with stressful stituations better knowing Ive got someone to lean on someone where I can look forward to meeting with. Love to me is when everything else seems to fade away(problems) nothing else matters as much. I have a much more positive atiude. Love is hapiness Ive had lots of boyfriends in the past (since I was 13) I was in a relationship for two years and in all that time I never felt the way I do now about this one. I doubt very much that hes seeing someone else!

Hey....Please help...I just need to know what people think I should do... Its kinda weird ... right here goes Ive been going out with my boyfriend for the last 2 months...at first I didnt even like him but now I can say I love him. The thing is, is that I never told him this. When we were first meeeting up with each other I used to see him about 3/4 times a week now Im lucky if I see him once every week... He used to always text me and actually sound interested in what I had to say now he talk about him self all the time...he never asks questions about himself...I know he sounds like a selfcentred guy but hes not...I just want to forget about him...Im always thinking about him and I can honestly say I never felt like this before over someone...I used to say I dont fall in love and Ive had loads of boyfriends in the past.... Okay now I want to pm him and say "give me a reason to hold on to what we have" to see if he likes me enough to continue the relationship but im soo scared incase ill scare him off but at the same time the best thing ever would be to find out he actually likes me...cause i just got the worst feeling like its going to end I was thinking of doing it tonight.... PLEASE HELP Should I do it?