I am gay my cousin is straight. He is totally fine with that. The problem is that I am extremely attracted to him, and I feel that he knows this when we hang out, we always play flirt, but when it gets to a certain point, he always just says things like it’s a shame you’re my cousin haha so it plays with my head, you know? Even though he’s straight, I know he would be very open to experimentation with the right guy from conversations we have had but I worry that the stigma of two cousins first cousins at that would not fly. Call me perverted. If you will I won’t judge, but I would go for it. I would give it a shot. I really would. You only live one life and it’s not like we can procreate so we wouldn’t have deformed Babies, but I worry that he would be so grossed out. He may never talk to me again, even though he blatantly flirts back all the time when we’re together, I mean we’ve jerked off together in the same room, but not touched each other and completely comfortable with that he is as well. He’s even said that so it makes me wonder and ponder, but I just don’t know what to do and if I should finally tell him I feel.