Please help me to figure out a way to let go of someone i love. Well it all started off as me meeting my sisters friend, we talked and started liking each other, I soon came to find out that she had feelings for another girl in the past and i could never get over that. The thing is that she plays basketball and during summer vacation she stopped seing Olga and became my girlfriend. At first i trusted her but there was always something in my head tearing me up, making me feel like if she was going to do something with her because she would call me up to tell me she was going out with the girls and so on. Well i fell in love with her after 3 months, just yesterday she called me up after work to tell me she was going out with the girls. She left her house at 9PM and she said she would call me when she got home. It was 12 and she still hadnt called me, here is where i made the worst mistake of my life. I called her anonymously from my cell phone to see where she was. when she would answer i would just stay quiet and not say anything, i guess she caught on that it was me so the next time i called her private she answered and said look babe they keep calling, and she passed the phone to some guy, (who was her cousin) so i hang up and call her back in 2 minutes. She asks me if i was the one calling her private and i say no. She calls like at 1:30 in the morning and is talking to my sister, i didnt know it was her, and my sister comes to my room to use the computer and i start telling my sister what I had done. She then calls me and tells me why i had lied to her and i asked her to forgive me but she wont. All the jelousy started because of what i knew about her and the basketball girls before and now i cant get over her. Please help me this is killing me inside.