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Well, thanks for all the advice. It was weirf yesterday, i got a feeling something changed, i d'ont know how to explain it, but anyway, i dreamed about her all night last night, first time since breakup, man i feel like crap inside, i am being strong, focusing on me,ect,ect, but this is the hardestt hing ever, and unfortunately the feelings i have for her just d'ont go away, i wish i could just turn them off att his point. I know time heals,or so i'm told, but how much time, a year, 2 years, the rest off my life? What is the point of all this and why. I've never thought i would say this, but i really wish i had never meet her, if this was the outcome, it really was not worth it. I am doing my best not to think about her, but it is always there, and i have found that talking to my brother, he is going trough a divorce helps, but my other friends just d'ont understand. I pray every day for a change in something or for the outcome to change my way, but nothing happens. I have dicided not to date anyone, it seams like a waste off time and unfortunately, i feel while i go on my dates, that no one compares to her. This is the worst. It really is hard, i've had my body broken by motorcycles, and recovery whas never easy, but i always new it would heal, but for this i d'ont feel it.

Well, thanks for the info, it helps and it does not at the same time. I am leaving her alone, and i know time, time, time, but man....anyway to be honest, i c'ant be her friend, i c'ant put myself trought that, that would be just too painfull, so i really d'ont think i could do it. I guess it has to be all or nothing, i know it sounds selfish, but that is how i feel. I have nothing to loose anyway, she is not in my life with me now anyway, so why be friends, that would just prolong the situation. But thank you for the info, i appreciate it, i know there is someone out there for me, i really though i had found her..This blows...arrrggg

Yeah, well i am 35 and i have been with many woman, and never felt like this ever about any off them, even my 2 ex wifes..i wanted to have a familly with this one, i know she is the one, still do, this sucks.I wonder if she misses me or think about me...I am very picky too, and it is hard for me to find someone i want to be with, i mean meeting women is not a problem, just one i want to be with is, one that has education and knowledge, one you can talk too about anything and everthing...i feel it will take me a long time to find another. Really, i just want this one back, but i d'ont know how i can do it, i hate it....it hurts everday, and it has been 2 months, i miss her more and more, in fact i went on date last night, and it made me miss her so much. I d'ont know, but i know this awfull

Hey man. let me tell you something. I was in institution early this month for attempted suicide. It did not bring her back in my life, and to be honest, i wonder now how i let soemeone have that much control on me. Long story short, i am glad i am still here, even though i still d'ont see a point, but i realized i had a lot off friends and people that wanted me around and my familly, so i realized it would hurt them very much. So, before you go down my road, d'ont do it, it's not worth it.

man i miss her and what we had

Well i d'ont know what to say to you, i am in a bad situation myself, but i am learning that every day that goes by, things seam to get easier, and i am learning that i have to keep myself busy, if i sit home i slide down a dangerous road. I hope this helps

Yeah well it does not make things easier or better. unfortunately for me, and this is the part that really gets me, is it will take a while to recover, and be able to be in a relationship. That just blows, again it was a waste of my time.. am i angry..? yes at times, and also p****d off. Only thing that keeps me possitive is i d'ont know what the future holds for, and that gives me anxiaty, i had my life planed out, and now i have to re-plan my life for just me, a task that is not easy and takes time..everthing takes time....i hate time..it is infuriating

Well, this really sucks, i have to say, never imagined i would be in this situation last year. She said whe could be friends....PFFF...why? i really d'ont want to hear about her dates and stuff... Really i could have spent the year with someone who would have not put me in this situation, or waisted my time. I the end i feel foolish and used, and stupid for letting my guard down... maybe i am turning bitter, but. who needs this crap in their life..unfortunately i know she will call me eventually to say she messed up, they all do, without sounding arogant, but the question i wonder about today is who i go back, i c'ant do this to myself, and if this is the hand i got dealt, then surely a full house is coming up..of course my race bikes help me deal with anger and the other feelings, nothing like a good 170 mph to put things back in their place. The question i keep wondering about and would love to know the answer is why did this happen to me and how? i am tired of people telling me to learn from it, or it will make you stronger, it is very irritating

Well for one thing, it is weird that after a month he would feel like he wants to pass the rest of his life with you, kinda early and that feeling takes time to realize, so a months seams very short. As for the familly, if he really loves you, he would talk to them and have you over there to talk to them too. In the end all that matters is if he wants to be with you and have is familly dissaprove, and that is a hard deccission for anyone to make, but the situation at hands puts a lot of presure on him. You should probally just back off for a while. I hope this helps, i am going trought my own crisis, it is posted.

Hi thanks for the reply. No, im not obsevive about the relationship, i have been out on several dates since, but i did/do feel like this one is/was the One. What else for me to do, but not contact her i guess. I do have hobbies, i race superbike 750cc class in club, so that takes my mind off things, but it has been hard to go on. The depression i had whas not all about her, i did burry my farther 4 years ago and my mom 2 years ago, and a daughter 10 years ago, i do feel like i have gone trough a lot, and i believe she was the frosting on the cake. I wish i had never meet her, to be honest, i was perfectly happy before i meet her, and had lots of diferent g-friends. I just felt it was time to settle down, and i remenber her saying to me this spring i should oppen up my heart and feelings to her, well, i did, and i guees this is what iget. What a waste off time.Is NC really the best? Does it work?

Hello. My g-friend, witch i dated for a year, broke up with me in bigening of October. She gave me many reasons why, each time a different one, but she said many times she did not feel commited to the relationship, and said when she saw other couples, she did not see us like them. However, whe had a beautifull relationship, it was wonderful, and i have to say i wanted to spend my life with her, never felt like this about anyone, ever. So she broke up with me, even told me she wanted to break up in july, but at same time took me home to meet her familly. I love her so much, wrote her poems, flowers, you name it, but she said it was not enought. Last time i saw her in October, whe had agreed to hang out, and also agreed that whe would not kiss or anything like that. SO i was hanging out with her, and decided i should go, it was way to hard for me. So i told her i am going to leave, and then she got up and came and sat in my lap and told me how much she loved me and kissing me and all that. So i stayed the night, but in morning she said nothing had changed. I was crushed, and left feeling worse. Later on that week i sufered a real bad depression, one that took me to the hospital for several days and an institution for another 3. She called me while i was in there, that was the last time i talked to her, i had to get off the phone, and even thought she said she could not be with me, she loved me. Last thing she said before i hung up was i love you, i said whatever. I have not talked to her since, and she totally closed the door on me, even thought she said she wanted to be friends. I did not only loose her, i lost our friiends, common friends whe had as a couple, and her familly witch is dear to me. I have comunicated with her via email for other things, about airline faires whe had purchased, but got very dry and callous replys. I d'ont know what i did wrong and what i did to be treated like this by anyone, i am a good and loving person.Thing is is miss her so much everyday, and think about her, she was my best friend and my partner. This is the hardest break up i have ever had. I tried to call her several times, but no answer and i did email her 3 or 4 times to tell her how i felt about us and our relationship, whe were a perfect match, believe me. I dont know how to get her back, everday i fight the urge to call her, people have told me to let her miss me or call me and quit insisting and go on with my life, but it breaks my heart evertime i think off going on without this person as my lover. She tols me so mainy things while whe were going out, that realisticly whe should be making plans to get maried right now, not this. I d'ont know what to do and how to do it...must i ignore her complitlly for her to get back interest in me or just go on, man this is very hard and comfusing...please, give me advice on what to do, it is killing my heart... thank you