unbound

lady00 wrote: > You need to ask yourself why you are obsessed with a woman you barely > know. You seem to be in love with the idea of her, rather than the person. I agree with you. This mystifies myself as much as it must others. I generally don't find other women attractive unless they have some characteristics that closely resemble her. I don't know why I am obsessed. But I can tell you that I think it is largely chemical (at least what started it). The reason is because anti-depressants and other psychiatric meds have helped to reduce my thinking of her. Unbound

I fully understand your position. I was once in that position myself. There are a few things that you should consider. First you should consider dropping the class if you can so that you can avoid getting an F. Second, keep in mind that there is plenty of time to graduate, and that you aren't dumb, or worth any less than if you graduated on time. If you really think you are going to kill yourself, go to the hospital, or call 911 and tell them how you feel. You will likely be put in a psych ward, but only for a short term. I won't lie to you, it isn't exactly a pleasant experience to be in a ward, but at least it gives you time to get back on your feet. Right now you need perspective. Your life is worth far more than a pesky degree. Believe me, I'm a college grad myself.

I've been in love with a woman for the last 14 years. We met at age 14, so that makes us both 28 now. I remember the day we met and how we met on a train going to Silverton CO. I knew instantly that she was somehow very special. I prayed (which was a rare thing for me) that I would have more contact with her, and that we wouldn't just meet on the train only later to never see each other again. It turns out that she was part of my school group (on a field trip), and so we did meet again, and we ended up going to high school together. During high school, I was always too insecure to talk to her, or approach her. She knew that I was interested in her though, I was unable to hide it and I was never mature enough to date her, so we went through school without ever dating. Once we were in college we kept in touch a little through e-mail, but we essentially had no real contact during the entire relationship (if you can even call it that). Over the last 10 years we have gone on and done our own things but I have continued to think about her. My heart aches for her, even though in reality I barely know her. She is presently dating someone else, probably living with this person, and she lives out of town. But she is coming to town sometime next week to visit her parents. I'm considering trying to get in touch with her, but I'm afraid of the emotional consequences that could arise if she rejects me. I have already made 1 suicide attempt due to my feelings of loss of her, and hospitalized twice because my doctors were concerned I might try again. I've had one girl friend in my life, and that was only for 2 weeks, I feel that I have invested so much of my life into my obsession for this woman I love that I don't know who I am without her. Unbound