Ive expected too much, now its all too hard.

[Hero_Kills_World]

I can't stand it anymore, and my feelings keep hurting me...

 

The problem is, im in love with a friend of mine, and we can be pretty good friends, sometimes, but othertimes, she can be really cold towards me. Because of this, somedays i will come home and become EXTREMELY depressed. because how i feel the rest of the day is based on how i feel emotionally when i get home, ill sometimes want to die. I know its not a good thing that i love her so much, but no matter how hard i try i cant get her out of my head. I really wish i hadent fallen so hard for her, because its just stupid the way things go sometimes. If i could just maybe accept that i will never be with her, and that she isnt worth it, maybe i wouldent feel as horrible as i do half the time. For some stupid reason, accepting that just seems liek too big a thig for me to do.

[NKP]

How about have NC from her for a little while until you start to fell better, you cant just rely on this girl. Or why dont you go and get conseling and see how it goes, you will learn how to feel better about youself and all

[Hero_Kills_World]

if i could, i'd totally do it. The thing is, its nearly impossible to not see her. because we have so many of the same friends, and because i see her nearly every time i go to a differnt class, I'd have to stop most of my friendships for her, and risk being late to classes.On the counseling part, i really dont know how to go about getting it at this time, or how i would even ask my parents about it, since my other siblings have never had problems like this. but, thanks for the advice anyhow Lost, really appreciate it.

[NKP]

How about seeing the school conserlia