Stardoll11 Posted January 15, 2018 Share Posted January 15, 2018 Hi I hooked up with my current boyfriend roughly around one year ago, we weren't serious and were mainly hooking up for one thing. I pretty quickly developed feelings and couldn't help but feel a connection, but the feelings weren't returned and his treatment of me from the start was not nice and not how I would be expected to be treated, even some of the comments he made to me were hurtful and Rude also sleeping together on nights out and not contacting me after. I felt hurt and used as I seen him with numerous women inbetween times that we still hooked up. I know we weren't together but I couldn't help but feel used and disrespected. Seeing him in action with other women turned me off him and I distanced myself as much as I could trying not to let his actions effect me and soon they didn't and I was happy enough to see him do his own thing and I was happy by myself. Although I distanced myself and he meant noting to me, the feelings I had never fully went away. But all of a sudden he's attitude towards me changed, as if someone turned a switch on in him and I knew by his actions that he wanted me. At first I thought it was too good to be true but it wasn't. His effort was consistent and he showed me he loved me and I had no doubt He did. This was like a different person, I couldn't believe the change. I was always careful because I knew how much he had hurt me in the past. After a while we got into a relationship in which were still in and he really does make me so happy and treats me like a queen, I couldn't ask for somebody better. But sometimes I can't help but feel bitter towards him for the way he treated me before. I can't forget the past even though I try put it to the side but unfortunately he hurt me too much for me to ever fully forget. I know of several women that he had sex even some I seen him with in clubs etc. This for me is hard to accept. I forgive him but I can't let go. I want to be able get over this but am finding it hard. When I ask him why he treated me like that before he uses the excuse that he was smoking weed every day and that this made him selfish and he didn't care about anyone else. He has since given up smoking weed and is like a new person. Is this too good to be true?? HELP Link to comment
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